Where is God when your world is shattered?

By Bennett Rolan – BSF Editorial Manager

Catherine Barker can still picture 7-year-old Samuel’s “jaunty run. With arms outstretched, jacket flying and rain boots splashing through the field behind their South Wales homeSamuel’s “cheeky” grin radiates pure joy.  

But as quickly as Samuel is there, his image fades into a memoryJust nine months ago, Samuel was involved in a traffic accident outside their home. Samuel did not survive, and his mother’s grief is still raw.  

In the early days after her son’s death, Catherine found solace in the nearby field as a place to wrestle with her thoughts. 

I wasn’t feeling angry at God. I knew God was angry too. But I did feel a general sense of anger, a sense of ‘Why?’” Catherine said. “Why is he gone when I can see him so clearly in my mind’s eye? 

During one of those quiet walks, with her anguish exposed, Catherine realized she was not alone. 

“God spoke to me very plainly in that moment. He gave me the Bible verse when the women go to look for Jesus in the tomb, and He’s not there. The angel says, ‘Why are you looking for the living among the dead?’ It was as if God said to me, ‘Don’t conjure him among the fields. Why are you looking for him here?’  

It was God’s way of saying to me, ‘Don’t be sad that Samuel isn’t here anymore. He is better off where he is. He is alive!’ 

There have been so many times when God has put an unexpected verse or Psalm into my head. Only He can do that.”

Another surprising moment with the Lord came just hours after Samuel’s death. 

Words can’t describe how I was feeling that first night. But God put joy into my heart to the point that I was actually smiling eight hours after it happened. That’s not human. No amount of human willpower can do that, it was just from God. 

“What put that smile on my face is the assurance of where Samuel is. As a parent, you’re never happier than your saddest child. If your child is unwell, you hurt too. Samuel will never be my saddest child. To a grieving mother’s heart that is the best balm you can give. I do get really, really sad, and I miss him. But what I can also do is tell myself the fact that biblically he’s not lostHe’s with Jesus.”

For Catherine, her husband, Jim, and two other sons, Samuel’s death revealed the gravity of pain in fallen world. Now, more than ever, they cling to the assurance of God’s promise to restore all things.  

“This world is a shadow, a beautiful shadow, but a shadow nonetheless of what is to come. Life is very precious, but life is not all there is. No matter how much I used my head knowledge before, I couldn’t long for the hope of heaven. But my experience of suffering has widened the difference between this life and how brilliant heaven is going to be – no death, no grieving, not distracted by our own sinful desires. We will be dressed in clothes of righteousness standing in the holy presence of God.”  

Though her grief runs deep, Catherine’s joy and hope run deeper. Through the loss of her precious son, Catherine’s relationship with Christ is her lifeline to wake up in the morning, snuggle with her sons, laugh with her husband and comfort Samuel’s friends.

Prepared by His Promises

Pointing to distinct moments before Samuel’s death, Catherine fully believes God prepared her to shoulder the sadness and glorify Him in her pain. 

Through years of in-depth study as a BSF children’s leader, God equipped Catherine through His Word. He planted His promises in her heart and built a faith to weather the storm.  

Studying Genesis several years ago taught her obedience and reading through the Gospel of John deepened her conviction of God’s love. In 2019, while studying 1 Samuel 1, Catherine’s Teaching Leader posed a difficult question. 

She asked, ‘Are you willing to give God the thing that’s most precious to you?’ and of course, my children immediately came to mind,” Catherine said. I was thinking, ‘Can I really offer my children to God?’ 

“At the time I couldn’t, and it really bothered me. Weeks later, clearly remember going through my routine of praying in the boys’ rooms after they went to bed. I was in my older son’s room, kneeling to pray, and I was finally able to let go of my children and give them back to God. I had my hands up. I said, ‘Take them Lord, they’re Yours.’ In my heart, I accepted that God could look after them better than I ever would. I knew that to surrender them to Him would be the best thing I could do for them. 

God used that moment to strengthen Catherine’s dependence on Him, and after Samuel’s deathCatherine held onto His unshakable promise in Genesis 8:22While the earth remains, seedtime and harvest, cold and heat, summer and winter, day and night, shall not cease.” 

“God promised springtime and harvest for generations to come. Every time we get a load of acorns on the oak tree, I know I can cling to the Maker of heaven and earth,” Catherine said. “Sometimes at night I go out to look at the silhouette of a tree against the night sky and see the stars. It’s so comforting to know He made those stars and we’re not out of His control. My experience isn’t outside of His experience. He’s got this, and he’s also got Samuel. 

Faith in His Future

As we study God’s words to Noah in Genesis 89, we reflect on the familiar sign of the rainbow, signaling that God keeps His promises in spite of our sin. 

Noah’s sacrifice in Genesis 8:20 and God’s controlled wrath in Genesis 9 remind us of a later covenant, forged by the blood of the ultimate sacrifice. Instead of an altar, we can cling to a cross and instead of a rainbow we look to an empty tomb. In His covenant with Noah, God promised restraint. But in His covenant through Christ, we are promised redemption. 

And with that assurance, Catherine can rest in the mercy of her Heavenly Father. 

“I knew I could trust Him. If He sent His son to die for me, I could trust Him with mine,” she said. “When God took Samuel, He had already prepared my heart. He waited until I was ready to trust.” 

Though Catherine’s grief cannot be undone on this earth, she clings to the promise of eternity.

For each of us, suffering is real and loss is inevitable. Like Noah, waiting for God to open the door of the ark, we may feel the storms of life tossing us in every direction. But the words of Genesis 8:1 give us insight into God’s character: 

“But God remembered Noah …”

As His people, we too have confidence that God remembers us. 

For those who feel like they’re stuck in the boat, I would encourage them to remember who God is,” Catherine said. Remember how He has already shown His faithfulness to you or others you know. Read stories from the Bible that remind you of God’s faithfulness. Very often, God gives us work to do while we wait for Him. Trust the Lord and His timing, He won’t forget you. The rainbow in the sky is a message from God to all creation that says, ‘I’ve not forgotten you. I remember you.

Having attended BSF from his infancy, Samuel was grounded in God’s Word. At the age of 6, Samuel wrote a Psalm. In squiggly pencil handwriting, he captured the purity of God’s love for His people. After his death, Samuel’s Psalm circulated through the Barker’s local community, international friend group and beyond. As we thank God for Samuel’s life, we must also thank Him for Samuel’s faith.

“I used to pray for Samuel, that he would be a great man of God,” said Catherine. That God would bless him early with a true faith that would stand the test of time. He was never the great man of God I expected, he didn’t become a minister or anything like that. But what he’s done has touched more people than we could ever have imagined. I’m grateful for that.”  

Bennett Rolan

Editorial Manager

Bennett Rolan joined the BSF staff in 2017 after working for several Christian ministries and non-profits. She loves to combine her passion for God’s Word and her journalism background to share stories of God’s Work in and through BSF. As a wife to a busy college football coach and a mom to four young children, BSF studies keep her relationship with the Lord grounded and focused. She loves to learn from fellow believers as God faithfully grows her each day.

 

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314 Comments

  1. time has gone by, but thank you for this story of Samuel.

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  2. I was touched by the witness of a mother who took consolation by the mere living fact her little boy touched the hearts
    of many people . What a witness.This testimony uplifted my soul.
    gladys kanagaraj.

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  3. Thank you for sharing your story of how the Lord sustained you through the pain. Day by day may He continue to encourage all of us as we face the hard situations that each of us go through.

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  4. Thank you for sharing your story to strengthen and encourage each of us of the Love God has for all His children and there is hope, faith, trust and the promises of God to sustain us in all things.

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  5. “ He waited until I was able to trust “ God is patient with us.

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  6. I enjoyed that stirring story from a mother who have lost a sweet child and is able to share her true feelings in such a candid way.

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  7. Thank you for this ,I list my son and I did not understand how to bear the pain .God has been faithful and am inspired by this message

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  8. I thank GOD for Catherine sharing Samuel with us and his letter. My daughter is now with the LORD and has been now for 25 years. I too am glad that GOD prepared me for her going to be with HIM. HE gave us a closer relationship before she left to be with HIM. HE also allowed me of HIS assurance that she was with HIM through a picture that looked like an angel that I had taken at her gravesite. She is with GOD and I will see Marlynn when I go home to be with the LORD.

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  9. What a cool auto rainbow around a beautiful ray of sunshine. Children are such a wonderful gift from God to be cherished forever.

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  10. Catherine, Such a Beautiful tribute to your son and Glorifying God through your faithful testimony!! Because HE lives…. you can face tomorrow. Because Samuel lives you can face today. Amen Amen my faith is increased. XXOO

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  11. what a wonderful testimony I know it’s very painful and will often be painful but the fact that he wrote this some at such a young age that’s also amazing I will share this with others God bless you comfort you. And multiply to you blessings as he did to to Hannah when she gave up her Samuel

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  12. So refreshing to read how this mother used faith in God to help with a grieving spirit.

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  13. I can relate to much of Catherine’s grief and How God showed His Love to me through BSF. In March of 2017 I got the call from my daughter that the doctor’s could not find the heartbeat of the baby boy she was carrying. He (Luke) was the first grandchild. She was due in three weeks. This was not supposed to happen. My Son in law is a Music Minister,his dad was our pastor and my boss, my daughter is a nurse, my husband taught Sunday School for 20 years. I work at my church. Our lives were centered around church and God. The year this happened we were studying John at BSF. I’ve been in BSF for almost 20 years and taught in the preschool program at one time. Because of being in the word so much God comforted me in just a miraculous way. That week’s study was written just for me. I learned that 1.) Bad things happen to good people and God still loves you, cares for you and provides for you. The passage we studied that week was John 17- Jesus was praying for me in the midst of my circumstance. 2.) from the lecture,what i heard the night before, I learned He will not let anything in my life that He won’t be glorified in. 3.) From the notes I learned Our Father has sufficient power wisdom and love to remove us from this world. It was the three fold approach BSF uses to layer truth upon truth. Also what I did not know was that I was prayed for by the local BSF leadership about being a group leader.WOW more prayer! We now have another grandson, Samuel and a testimony to God’s faithfulness and love. My daughter and Son in law has used their testimony to help others also. Thanks for letting me share. #MyGodReigns

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    • Celyn, thank you so much for sharing! The way God comforted you and used the prayers of others has me in tears.

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  14. Thank you for sharing how God has ministered to you through His Word at just the right moment. He is so good. He will definitely use your story to minister to others. Praying for your continued peace…even on the tough days❤️

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  15. mmmmm

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  16. I am so touched. Thank you for sharing the story of Samuel, Catherine.
    I will learn your faith in God n trust everything to Him.

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  17. Thank you for sharing your story! It builds my faith!
    I’m saving Samuel’s psalm and will put it on Fridge to always remember your son and your famiky! I have two kids 6y girl and 4y boy! Always open to help your family!

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    • Thank you for sharing this heartfelt message. I love Samuel’s letter and the rainbow of cars in his photo. How creative. God put a rainbow in the sky to remind us of his promises. May he keep you reminded and in his care.

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  18. Catherine,
    Thank you for your courage to share your pain and Samuel’s beautiful life. I can relate to your grief as both of my parents were killed in a car accident a few years ago. My grief over them was so hard at times, and I struggled with how to find joy again. Thankfully, they both knew Jesus as Savior and my grief was not without hope.
    I learned to offer God a sacrifice of thanksgiving even through the tears each day. I clung the the thought that while death is horrible, God is good! I rest in that.
    He will bring you through this by His mighty right hand and use you to comfort others with the comfort you have received from God. May the Lord of all peace give you everything from His rich supply.?

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  19. When my son was born blind, brain damaged due to lack of O2, with cerebral palsy, and status epileptus, I shook my fist at God and asked why not sinful me instead of this innocent baby. The answer was, I am a God of love. Who was I to question God’s love of my son, when I can only “know” from the perspective of this life, and can only comprehend with the tool between my ears?” God’s answer filled my heart and my son’s life taught me so much.

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  20. Blessings of the Lord will make you and he adds no sorrow. I don’t why I have to say this to you. I cannot understand but I Trust. Lord’s asked me only few days ago to lay down my Kids at the Altar.

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  21. Wow. What a remarkable story. Indeed we are loved beyond measure. May God bless us with this amount faith.

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  22. Samuel’s simple child like faith is so beautiful, he might not have become the giant man of a minister or layman but he certainly loved the Lord with all of his heart. So sorry for your families’ lost, but Samuel seemed to have touched many in the short time that God gave him to you all. Such a sweetie ! ! My prayers and thoughts are with you.

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  23. Beautiful testamony. My best friend is losing her son for only a little while. I think this story will give her strength to carry on when she’s asking God why? She’s a strong believer in her Lord and Savior but it’s good to know that Jesus is a on time God and in control.

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  24. You are a beautiful woman! I love your son and I don’t know the depth of what your family has gone through but Samuel has touched my heart ❤️

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  25. Catherine,

    What beautiful faith and strength God has gifted you. My heart breaks for you and your family. Samuel will live on for years because of his trust, love, and faith for Jesus. Thank you for pouring out your heart and letting God shoulder the burden. It gives me the strength to let go of the things that break my heart, allowing God to have it all. Then there is the hope and peace of Jesus’ love. I will forever see Samuel and his beautiful, colorful rainbow. Thank you again for sharing your passion for God and the burden of letting go with us.

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  26. Praise God for how He changes us, cares for us, prepares us.
    What a tribute to His personal touch on every life. On my life.

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  27. I am currently staying with
    my son who is fighting throat cancer. He has severe throat pain and can barely swallow.It is so easy to question God and asked why? But I am blessed to know God is in control, not me and that he loves my son more than I. Your experience with your son’s accident gives me hope that I too can weather this storm thru faith. God alone has control over life and death and so I like you turn my son over to our Heavenly Father.

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  28. She’s right- it doesn’t make any human sense to smile in the midst of tragedy. But God isn’t human and his ways are not our ways. So when he’s working in you- there’s no telling the amounts of faith you can exhibit. It’s amazing to read how God answered your prayer for your son to have true faith and to have a faith that stands the test of time. God was glorified to grant your request in the most surprising timing. Remembering that time to God is not an obstacle, but a tool. This helps me wait “to get off the boat” and to remember that he is faithful as you said, to prepare us for what is next. God provided sacrifices for Noah to offer in his thorough instructions for what to take with him on the boat. I love your faith. It encourages me as I’m currently sitting where nothing makes sense and it seems that God has forgotten to act. He hasn’t and he won’t. He’s working. And I believe him to be faithful. Thanks for sharing Samuel’s story. It encourages me to continue to pray big faith prayers for my children and to surrender them to his care.

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  29. Dear Catherine,
    Your precious son and your heart warming story has touched my heart today. What a precious gift Samuel is to all of us whose lives have been touched by his. Thank you for sharing this tender part of your life,Catherine. It’s clear that your endurance is laced with God’s grace and love. I pray that you would feel God’s presence daily, in a tangible way. God bless you, your husband and your boys.
    Love, Norma ( children’s leader – San Antonio Texas)

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  30. I am with my terminally ill sister.
    The pain is the same.
    My tear can’t stop flowing.
    I am all sore …and weak.

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    • Praying for you now, Meng.

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  31. What a testimony. We can trust Our Heavenly Father to help Us and comfort us in our times of grief

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  32. This is so inspiring! I am so sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine having my child go to Heaven before me. I super love the Psalm Samuel wrote and how he created the rainbow picture! What a little “man of God “ he is! Thanks so much for sharing ??

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  33. Thank you, Catherine and BSF for sharing Samuel’s story and the Psalm that he wrote. It is a very inspiring story. Blessings & peace to all of you!

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  34. Thank you for sharing your prayer for Samuel that God would bless him with a true faith that would stand the test of time… It’s a precious thought.

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  35. What a beautiful story. A masterpiece. I am in Rock Hill, SC. Samuel’s story—especially his beautiful psalm—has touched me in a way that brings both sadness and great joy. Only a work of God can do such a thing. May our faithful God continue to bless Catherine and her family.

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  36. Thank you Catherine for sharing this beautiful story of your son Samuel and how our Lord comforts us with His Word. Thank you Lord for always being with us. With love , your sister in Christ

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  37. Samuel’s picture with his “rainbow cars“ and his smile leave behind a powerful message for us all : God is the Promise-Keeper.

    Truly an inspiring real-life story and I’m so touched! Thanks Catherine.

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  38. Dear Catherine,
    An incredible uplifting ,encouraging story. Beautiful Psalm by Samuel and oh my ,what a cute face !
    Bless you for sharing.
    I will give my children and grandchildren to God ,my sister who is ill and those who will come to mind as I speak to The Lord,who I may be holding on to.
    I have been involved with BSF for 2 and a half years now and am so grateful for the incredible teachings and fellowship.

    Psalm 32 v 8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;I will counsel you and watch over you . I love this promise.
    Knowing our Lord and Saviour is such a beautiful privilege.
    Abundant blessings I ask for you and your precious family as you continue to serve our amazing God.
    Desire ‘
    Sydney Australia

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  39. It is wonderful that in her grief Catherine can still see the love of God and how much He cares. Yes, He waits for us.

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  40. Dear sister in Christ, I praised the Lord for His work in your life. thanking you 4 your sharing. To God Be The Glory. Meriama Evening Women’s group. Adelaide, Sa.

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  41. Beautiful to see the heart of this child and just how much he trusts the Lord.
    Thanks for sharing this message. Thank you Jesus for I am certain that this child is safe with you in heaven.

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  42. What a deep inspiring devotion . Thanks for sharing.

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  43. Samuel is a great child of God,
    He is the beloved.
    Beautiful Testimony Catherine,
    God bless you and your family ❤️??

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  44. Sorry, word cream is meant to say crem. Lynda

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  45. So encouraging! I remember our BSF class praying for Catherine when her son Samuel died. I have been in BSF for over 30yrs now and 18yrs ago our son Paul was killed in an unprovoked knife attack in Liverpool. He was only 28yrs old and about to be engaged. We too were devastated as you can imagine, but like Catherine we received so much help, love and support through BSF. I remember the Lord also speaking to me when I went to the cream one day from the same verse that Catherine mentioned. I never “had to” visit the cream again after that. So much healing has taken place through God’s word and His wonderful Presence. Thank you for all you mean to me. P.s. I have said to class that I will wait until we can meet in person before I continue the study as am hopeless on the computer!!

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  46. Amazing testimony and it is truly glorifying God. Catherine thanks for this inspirational message.

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  47. God is faithful in all situations. May He continue strengthening Catherine and her family every step of the way as He takes them through this season in Jesus Christ name. Shalom

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  48. What an uplifting and encouraging message from both you and Samuel! A reflecting rainbow has shown through your faith, your hope and your love for our PROMISE KEEPER LORD and SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST???. Thank you for sharing your pain, your prayers and your promises because you show how GOD HAS and IS CARING for you, Catherine! May the LORD BLESS you and KEEP you and MAKE HIS FACE SHINE UPON you and give you and all your family PEACE, JOY, GRACE, and LOVE!

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  49. so thankful for this wonderful testimony of God’s faithfulness to Catherine. Every word spoke to my heart as I go through this time of my loss.
    I thank God for BSF and all those who work hard towards making it possible to study God’s word in depth.

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  50. I enjoyed reading this testimony. We thank God for giving Catherine strength. He is indeed a God of the good times and God of the bad times. He is always on time. Even in death He is still God. He never sleeps or slumbers. He is unshakeable, unstoppable.

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  51. What an awesome testimony. Thanks for sharing your story. Reading your story gives me hope to continue to trust in him at all times, when I am up and when I am down. Dealing with losing a loved one is so difficult. You are truly a woman of faith. Reading your son’s psalm was so touching. May you and your family continue to grow stronger and be comforted by God’s holy presence.

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  52. My mom died at age 26 of an astrocytoma of the brain and I was 11 months old.
    My only daughter at age 17 was killed in an automobile accident while she was a passenger.
    Studying the book of Genesis has given me new insight into our very being while on this earth. I looked back too often in my life and I grieve for the loss but my mom and my daughter were born again Christians, living their faith.
    I take great solace knowing God grieves with me, loves us all, wants all of us to know and understand his love for us. Mom and my daughter are in heaven worshipping and praising God in the glorious light of the rainbow…colors so magnificent.
    People were saved as a result of my daughter’s life. I am grateful to be stronger and stronger in my faith. I am so grateful for BSF. This is my first year and I cannot wait for more studies. Blessings abound. God is so good. Thank you for your testimony.

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    • What a powerful testimony you have. I am so sorry for both of your losses. So glad you’re in BSF. Praying for Gods strength and love to shine through you and all around you. We’re on this road towards home together dear sister!??

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  53. What a testimony Catherine. Thank You for sharing.
    The Lord reign! May His grace, healing and peace be upon you and your family.

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  54. My sisters and brothers (7) of us were orphaned when we were all under the age of 10yrs.A life of trauma and tragedy began and continues to this very day. I am now 62yrs of age. A loving God I think not

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    • I’m praying for you, Katrina. We are exactly the same age! ?
      Jesus told us we would have trouble in this world. It’s almost like He was helping us to prepare for them. Look up. Look around. Look within. I’m praying God gives you a sign like He did for Noah, of His ever-present, ever faithful love, even in the hardest of circumstances. “But God……“

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    • Dear Katrina,
      I feel your pain. I pray God may surround you with peace and joy.

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    • Jesus just before He went to the cross told His disciples, I will not leave you orphans. I will come to you.” This has given me such comfort. Now we have the Holy Spirit always ever present within us, “Christ in you the hope of glory”. As I continue in my walk with God and really read (eat) His Word daily, I am finding out that truly His Word is truth and life and nourishes and supplies my daily needs.
      The Lord bless and comfort you and rejoice your spirit.

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    • My heart goes out to you dear friend. I can’t even imagine your pain. We’re on this road towards our heavenly home together. Where someday every tear will be wiped away. Praying your future will be filled with hope and some truly rewarding friendships from whom you can draw strength.

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  55. Thanks Catherine for sharing your painful experiences on the loss of your son samuel at tender age.
    Am encouraged on how God ministered to you on” looking for the living among the dead”
    May God heal your heart completely as you comfort and encourage other hurting and going through pain of loss of a loved of especially through covid 19.

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  56. Samuel’s Psalm is a testimony that Jesus saves even little children. An encouragement to teachers and parents of the little ones. Praise be to God.

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  57. Thank you for sharing your story and how Samuel loved God. How you must miss him but at peace b/c He is safe with Jesus.

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  58. Thank you, Catherine. I’m so blessed by your courageous testimony and the picture of your precious boy and his rainbow. God is faithful and He truly does “gently lead those that are with young”… may He continue to bless and strengthen your beautiful mother heart.

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  59. Thank you Catherine for sharing your story about your son Samuel. I enjoyed what you had to say about giving your sons to the Lord. I have had some friends that have lost children, at an early age. They have shared their grief with me. God bless you as you continue to serve Him.

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  60. Catherine, thank you for sharing your story. It must have been very hard to write, although I find that writing can be very therapeutic. God has blessed me with the gift of writing. Every month He gives me articles to write about after reading your story I was wondering if I could share your story with others. I was unable to read Samuel’s poem . God has definitely answered your prayer . Although the answer might not look like you thought it would, “My [God’s] thoughts are high than your thoughts, My ways are higher than your ways.” I think the more you share Samuel’s story along with what you went through the more people will be encouraged and willing to share there own. The name of the newsletter is: God’s Love Is Newsworthy
    When I’m deeply encouraged by your newsletter I am also very sorry for your families loss May the peace of God which transcends all understanding guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.

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    • Chris,
      You may be able to read Samuel’s psalm by clicking on it. I was able to read most of it.

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  61. I wish I have faith like yours. I lost my two year old Hannah 12 years ago. I buried my faith with her. I now fear of loosing my elder child. I fear God does not care.
    I am praying for resurrection of my faith. I want to believe there is a God and He love us.

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    • Victoria,
      I am praying God will surround you with loving friends, give you a heart of comfort and his everlasting peace.

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    • I believe your name “Victoria” means victory. I declare to you today that ” Jesus has come that you may have life and have it more abundantly.” Satan comes to steal, kill and destroy. Jesus bore all our griefs and sorrows and when He hung on the cross, He cried, “My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?” Jesus suffered and died that we may have abundant life in Him.. The Word of God says, “I have not given you the spirit of fear but of power, of love and a sound mind.” Give all your fears and sadness to Him. Receive His love and grace. This is a brand new day. Rejoice in Him.

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    • Praying for God to give both you and your elder child the precious gift of faith. I love Psalm 139 so much I’ve been trying to memorize it this year! Verses 7-10 speak of no matter how hard we try to flee God’s presence in our lives, He is still leading us and holding us even through our most difficult times. We can walk, we can run, we can hide. But nothing can separate us from His love. We move away from Him but He never moves away from us. Praying you can experience His love and healing today dear friend!

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    • Dear Victoria,
      I am praying for you to experience Christ’s unfailing love for you. As we studied about Noah trusting God on the Ark, I realized that the more I trust God, the more I feel His presence and assurance. I pray that God would reveal Himself to you in a real way and comfort you during these times in your life. He is working in your life, Victoria. He will meet you where you are. Love, Norma

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  62. What an inspiring piece of writing! I relate very closely to Catherine’s story, having lost my elder daughter three months shy of her 23rd birthday on 18th March 2010. Devastating as it was to me, my late husband and our surviving daughter, I’ve found comfort in drawing even closer to God. Today, I am one who encourages those who find themselves in this unenviable position.

    Thank you Catherine.

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  63. What a beautiful story for all who have experienced loss. I lost my mom last year and my life has not been the same. I know she’s with Jesus and that gives me the peace and hope I have of seeing her again someday!

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  64. What a precious child’s expression of love, faith & hope in his Saviour.

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  65. This was absolutely beautiful. I long for faith and strength such as this. Thank you for sharing. Sending love and prayers.

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  66. Dear Catherine, thank you for sharing your testimony. It has lifted my trust & faithin the Lord a notch up! May God bless you & use you more for His glory.

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  67. Oh Catherine, how I wept with you as I read your beautiful story and can see the radiance of the Father on Samuel’s face in this picture. You are so right, God is using Samuel and your whole family as a testimony that will span far beyond what you can even comprehend! “See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!” 1 John 3:1

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    • Dear Catherine,

      Thank you so much for sharing your story. God bless you and your family.

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  68. Am truly blessed by that testimony. Sounds hard to surrender all that we have to God including our children but thats what he wants us to do

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  69. Praise be to GOD for such a moving testimony. Samuel is not dead. JESUS is holding him now. I too look forward to meeting our little giant Samuel. Thank you Catherine for sharing your unwavering trust in GODs unfailing love. It gives me so much hope. GOD bless you Catherine xxx

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  70. Thank you.

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  71. Thank you for sharing your heartfelt story about your precious son Samuel. Brought tears to my eyes. His psalm is precious and what a treasure that is to have. You are an encouragement to me to see how you have leaned on God during this difficult time. There are many in Heaven I look forward to meet one day again and I hope I get to meet your little Samuel and tell him I loved his Psalm ?

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  72. What a great joy to know the purpose of joining the BSF, to equip, to apply, and to be comforted and to enjoy the Words of God. Thanks be to God!

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  73. Thank you!

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  74. Oh, my heart. Thank you for sharing this, and I can hardly wait to meet this sweet “man” of God and tell him how he impacted my life with his testimony.

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  75. What a treasure God gave you in Samuel. In Samuel he gave himself.
    Praise be for His gift.

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  76. thank you for blessing my day.

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  77. What an encouragement to my faith ! Thank you Catherine, for sharing your grief in losing Samuel and your heart for our great God who brought you through this❤️

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  78. Very precious moving testimony, Samuel will reach so many , for the Lord.Just find his written testimony simply beautiful ,Bless Catherine and his family.
    THANKYOU so much for sharing .

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  79. Catherine,
    Thank you for the reminder of why God has called me to BSF leadership… “Through years of in-depth study as a BSF children’s leader, God equipped Catherine through His Word. He planted His promises in her heart and built a faith to weather the storm. “

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  80. Dear Sisters Cathrine,

    2Cro 6:19

    Thank you taken time to bless me.we have hope in Christ and he hold our future.
    I like the most remembering rainbow sign we can remember Jesus Empty tome.even I like faith statement.God remember the Noah.

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  81. Samuel’s Psalm is very comforting to know that Samuel is in a better place with Jesus and God whom he loved “so so so so so” much.

    It’s my prayer that my children will know and love God and Jesus like Samuel did. That one day they can also write a Psalm to be read and touch many lives after they are gone.

    Samuel rest in God’s arms till we meet again.

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  82. Thank you, Catherine and Jim, for accepting to be vulnerable and encouraging us on the importance of bringing up our young ones in God’s ways. Really encouraged by Samuel’s Psalm and you have given me a fresh look on Gen 8:1 … God remembered… May Faithful God continue to remember you and your family. Blessings from Nairobi

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  83. Dear Catherine,

    Thank you for blessing me by showing how God’s grace has been present in your life through your terrible suffering.

    May the Lord continue to comfort you and use you to comfort other parents as you have been comforted by our gracious father. Ps. 119:50

    The way you express your great loss reminds me of Elizabeth Prentiss’ experience captured in her biography by Sharon James called More Love to Thee, which is the title of her famous hymn.

    God bless dear sister.

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  84. Praise the Lord for His faithfulness and your willingness to share your story. I have been truly blessed and encouraged. Blessings, Melaine

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  85. Samuel’s faith and the love he had for God at a early age is very heartwarming and precious. Catherine is a strong faithful woman. Thanks for sharing.

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    • I hope that I get to meet Samuel after my time on earth is done. Thanks for being a strong parent Catherine. May God bless you and your family as it is now and make the rest of your journey as peaceful as possible.

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  86. I love testimonies. Catherine’s was not only a teaching moment, but I was convicted when I thought about my adult children. Samuel’s Psalms brought tears to my eyes.

    Thank you Catherine for sharing your story.

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  87. Thank you, Catherine, for telling how God has used His word to prepare and comfort you In this heartbreaking loss. Samuel’s life is still speaking.

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  88. Train up your children in the Holy Faith of God.
    What a wonderful loving CATHERINE. Samuel is all our children we want to teach them to LOVE GOD. A Happy little boy who is loving his life. Blessings to the family. Thank you for sharing

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  89. Your story touched my heart and I see that it did for many others. It comes down to faith and trust….walk by faith – not by sight. Trust in the Lord and lean not on your own understanding. God’s peace and blessings.

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  90. This message comes to me at a difficult time for our grown daughter and her twelve year old, our granddaughter. I am crying because I am so touched by God’s blessing to you,Catherine, at that difficult time and how He and you have used the lessons to bless me and no doubt countless others. Thank you, Samuel, Catherine, and our precious Lord for His infinite love to us all.

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  91. The loss of a young child is devastating to your body, mind & soul . Recovery & restoration may take years or in Samuel’s mom’s Case , only hours .
    Receiving God’s healing comes from our trust & Faith in God’s holy word & the blood of Jesus Christ

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  92. Wow! Beautiful heartbreak. Only God can do that!
    Clearly Catherine in your writing and expressing your grief you are praising God for a life, albeit short, was for His glory. Thank you for sharing a piece of your heart. Praying His light in you continues to shine bright with hope!

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  93. What a beautiful witness to us all. Samuel was truly a child after God’s own heart! Thank you for sharing how much God has held you in His arms. God bless you and your family.

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  94. What an inspiration. That reminded me of Abraham’s love and submission. Tears are running down my cheek as I think of the pain. And tears of joy and great admiration for Samuel and Catherine and her family. Thank you for sharing

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  95. It really speaks to my heart while I read in tears. I just lost my baby girl 4 days ago. There are so many phrases in Catherine’s testimony echoing and soothing my pain. God really remembers me and provides His comfort in time. I will trust Him in his faithfulness and his unfailing promises.

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  96. Reading this has truly helped me with my own loss. God is always good.

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  97. Our community recently experienced the tragic death of a neighbor when she was hit by a car while on her morning walk. She had been teacher at our elementary school, was a leader for a large area Bible Study, and attended a Christ centered church. While there is much grief in this loss, those of us who know where Carol’s hope lay, can rejoice that she is in heaven. Thanks for this reminder.

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  98. What a beautiful account of how God speaks to us when we grieve. Catherine opened herself up to God’s support and love. How wonderful that she has shared this with us.

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  99. What a blessing to read this Mother’s testimony of God and tribute to her precious son. Praising God right now.

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    • Thank you so much for your story with Samuel in Christ.
      What a beautiful Samuel he is! He is absolutely chosen by God. I love Samuel’s Psalm.

      Catherine(Okju) Kim

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  100. Thank you for sharing Catherine.

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  101. Thank you so much for sharing your heart. I would have loved to have known your son. He seemed like a ray of sunshine. I was convicted of also holding on to my daughters and grandchildren. Pray I come to the place that I can fully trust God with the care of them. I can’t do it anyway. May God use your life story to reach others.

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  102. Thank you for sharing your grief and the hope that you and Samuel have in our LORD. Just before I read your post, I was praying and asking the LORD what can I share to encourage a friend who just tragically lost her husband. Samuel’s witness and yours will reach more people than you can ever imagine. May our LORD wipe every tear from your eyes and hold you and your family close until you are reunited with Samuel before the throne of grace.

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  103. What incredible timing for me to read this. A dear friend just lost her husband after a four year battle with cancer. She is a faithful and dedicated servant to Christ, but her heart is shattered just the same. Thank you so much for sharing.

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  104. Catherine: I cannot stop sobbing after reading this, but what a beautiful testimony of how God works in the lives of our children and in us as we trust Him in everything. Loss of our loved ones is never easy, I lost my son last year at 57 yrs. old and your story really touched me. I had a similar experience in accepting that God is in control and we can trust Him completely for a smile in the midst of the storm! Praise God for you and your son’s story.

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  105. Dear Catherine,
    Your beautiful explanation of how we are supposed to Love God. You did explain it very well. I am so heart broken about your loss and know how much Samuel meant to you. Putting our faith in God is a behavior we learn from childhood. But to actually go through a loss such as yours really brings it home for all of us. Genesis is a wonderful book and I love it. I pray you will find more peace in your life as years go by. losing someone so young and precious to us is always wondering what their lives may have been. But then knowing God has them brings us a peace that transcends our loss. Many blessings in your days to come. Just knowing God loves you more than you can imagine helps. Big Hugs…Sharon

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  106. Wow – what a wonderful testimony he left for all the world to hear! Thank you for sharing, and prayers of continuing comfort for you and your family. God is so very faithful!

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  107. Thank you so much for sharing the story of Samuel. I am amazed at his faith! May God comfort his family.

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  108. Dear Catherine and your loved ones, it’s amazing you are encouraging than be encouraged. God bless you for sharing such a touching experience. Truly it can Only take God to be the separation. Samuel with my own daddy Samuel are at home in a better place than us. Peace peace be Still!

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  109. It is very interesting to me that the Lord comforted me with the very same verses from John 11 and Genesis 8:22 and many many more in my journey of grief after the death of my son. God is sovereign and speaks into us if we will listen.

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  110. What a precious child and now in the presence of the Almighty God. Thank you for sharing your experience and strength through this difficult time. God Bless you.

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  111. Thank you Catherine for sharing your beautiful story of your beautiful son, Samuel. I know that my son whose name is also Samuel is in Heaven too with his Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ. It’s reassuring to know where they are and that they are alive with Jesus and that one day we will be reunited with our sons. Hallelujah. God is so Good. God bless you and your family.

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  112. This blog has given me a beautiful answer to the anguish I witnessed two days ago with a friend who was struggling with a child’s journey with cancer. I know God led me to this blog for that very reason. Thank you.

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  113. To lose a loved one but especially a child is hard
    But to know he is with Jesus is so reassuring
    Thank you Catherine for adding I STILL MISS Samuel
    Sometimes we think we should NOT hurt if we know our
    loved ones are safe
    Thank you Lord for saving my children
    I still miss Mickey , Mom and Pop
    May they all rest in your Eternal PEACE

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  114. My son died in his twenties of blood clots. I grieved deeply for him also. One day at church as we sang a song of praise, The Lord gave me a vision of my son standing about three rows in front of me praising and loving on God. His focus was only on Jesus. That is the comfort God gave me and assurance that my son is at home with Him.

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  115. Praise GOD that HE is faithful and HIS promises are forever. How truly blessed we are that GOD gave us BSF children’s programs that touch that next generation. Thank you so much for sharing your story. It has made an impact on my group.

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  116. To be absolutely certain that Catherine’s son was in Heaven with Jesus was huge. She will always miss Samuel, but he was not lost. He’s in a place so glorious she (or I) can’t even imagine it. But one day she will. She will see Samuel again.

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  117. WOW, what a testimony of how God prepares us to shoulder the sadness & glorify Him in our pain.

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  118. I know my daughter is singing and dancing and praising the Lord with Samuel.

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  119. Thank you for the encouragement.

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  120. Thank you for sharing , I lost my Shane Dec.27,2019 he was 20 yrs old and died in a horrible car accident 1/2 mile from our home. It has devastated my wife,my son and 2 daughters and myself.The only thing that keeps me going is knowing he is in the kingdom ofGod and of course my other kids.

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  121. What a blessing! God is so faithful! We lost a son also, and God also warned my husband ahead of time, to prepare him for great pain. Our son is also with the Lord, and we are eager to see him again!

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  122. What a beautiful letter about God and Samuel love for God at a early age. He made me see the love God have for me (us), through the eyes of a child.

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    • This is so inspirational.At the moment my sister is experiencing deep depression.She is a believer.It is such a comfort in knowing that God remembers and He cares.

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  123. I can’t imagine anything worse than losing a child. It is a true testament to the care and provision of God that Catherine can give us her story of faith and hope in the midst of the most palpable loss that a mom can experience. I am grateful to Catherine for sharing her story- and for giving us this sweet representation of who Samuel was. I praise God with him that he is now in heaven with his friends God and Jesus forever!!
    “ Out of the mouths of babes“.
    Thank you Samuel for voicing what true faith is!

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  124. What an incredible Testimony, Losing a child is the worst of grief. No words can give them back their sweet Samuel. Only the comfort from above. Thank you for sharing and especially his Psalm of Faith. We must hold onto Truth!

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  125. My heart aches for you and your family. Thank you so much for your testimony of faith and courage, and thank you for sharing Samuel’s Psalm. Samuel had a beautiful heart for God. His story will continue to touch many hearts. May God’s love and prayers being offered comfort you.

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  126. God is faithful aNd Samuel lived a full life.

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  127. A dear friend of mine has just lost his 40 year old daughter to a very sudden and unexpected heart attack. I am sending him this love letter to God in the hope that it brings him and his family comfort. Thank you so much for sharing your story.

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  128. PRAISE to the God of All Comfort
    Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. For just as we share abundantly in the sufferings of Christ, so also our comfort abounds through Christ.
    Love you Catherine and Samuel, In Christ.

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  129. Precious story of God’s love and care. I love how He prepared Catherine through His word for the time that Samuel would go to be with Him. Samuel’s note is a real treasure. Thank you for sharing this.

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  130. Ohhh, how great that is that her child was soo connected to God. It was through his mother’s teaching and taking him to his Bible school as well that he had such a pronounced and solid connection with God. This helps me to understand just what that daily prayer to God means that He will protect us and provide. It all goes back to Genesis and Noah and the Covenant God gave to him and his descendants, of whom we are one.

    Such a beautiful understanding and connection to God both child and mother and family. Thank you for sharing your story; it helps me and mine in our walk with the Lord.

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  131. This is exactly what I needed to read today. God’s timing is astoundingly perfect! Thanks to Catherine for sharing her story. I especially appreciated the twist on “God’s got this” — “God’s got you in His control.” What a comforting and freeing thought.

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  132. This touched by heart so much. For such a young child his age loving the Lord and knowing that They loved him. The very thought of Samuel saying,’they’, ‘them’ shows the depth of his knowledge and the teaching he had in his brief life. Samuel got it when so many adults have yet to get it. God bless Samuel’s family for teaching Samuel, for loving the Lord and being steadfast in their faith. Thank God for BSF!

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  133. Thank you for sharing out of your great loss and grief. What a beautiful testimony of how our loving God uses His Word to speak to us and minister to our deepest need at the time. Losing a loved one so suddenly and unexpectedly is such a shock. My mother-in-law died unexpectedly while visiting my sister-in-law and her family in Africa. She left here healthy and fine, and it was hard to process that she was gone to us forever. However, as many were questioning what happened and why would God take her (she was only 68, healthy & vibrant), the teaching I’d received in BSF kicked in. Prior to this I’d had a friend who used to talk about “resting in God’s Sovereignty”. I couldn’t grasp exactly what that meant, but after learning of Jo Ann’s death, I got to live just that and I was able to REST in God’s Sovereignty. The number of her days was known to Him all along. It was just a surprise to us that they were that short. He had a plan and I could trust that He was not out of control for a minute. He could’ve spared her, but that was not His plan for her. I can rest, not fight against, His Sovereign will and plan. He has been gracious to us in the years since. We still miss her terribly, but we know she loves being with Jesus. He will be faithful to also lift the heavy blanket of grief from your heart and restore joy…in time. It’s all right that it takes time, because grief shows that the person was greatly loved. Thank you for sharing with us and may God use your story of faith to touch many hearts for Him.

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  134. What we can learn from the example of Faith of a small child ,a faithful God & a praying Mother can lead us into revival in our land Thanks Catherine for sharing your story & Samuel’s Poem

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  135. Beautiful boy! He is in Jesus’s hands.
    Thank you for your courage to write about your loss. It gives me strength and faith in our Lord!
    God bless!

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  136. Those trials that we go through is a test for us of how strong our faith are to God,if we overcome those trials with faith and trusting God we can have a better life.

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  137. Blessed be the name of the Lord!

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  138. Thank you for sharing unstoppable faith and God’s truths during a time so many are suffering. I have two sisters who have recently lost adult children. I don’t know where their faith is but see a huge gap between how they are grieving. One is deep in her loss and withdrew from all who could have consoled her. The other has stood strong and courageously lives each day accepting support and love surrounding her. I pray both can receive the faith that saves, consoles and gives us hope. Earthly loss is extremely hard but Jesus has been given to all who will receive him. I love the timing of this Genesis study as we are all experiencing the result of a fallen world❣️

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  139. What a touching story! My heart is aching when I am reading story, but at the end it’s all good! God is good all the time! He loves each and every one of us who have authentic faith in Him!

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  140. In words from God, this mother, has clearly communicated her faith in Jesus. May we all be honest with others about our pain and how God uses it to witness to a world that is broken.

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  141. Dear Catherine, Thank you for your uplifting testimony. Only your faith could have led you to see Samuel’s passing with thanks and praise to God. Your message is a ministry to the hurting and grieving. Your testimony is a sharing of God’s faithfulness to us this side of Eternity. Bless you for your witness.

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  142. Powerful!! And a wonderful reminder and testimony of God’s work in every aspect of our lives.

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  143. The hardest grief for a parent to lose a child but the greatest victory for a child that knows and loves Jesus (like Samuel). What a wonderful testimony to be shared and to touch more lives. God is faithful! Keep sharing -Samuel’s story for God’s glory! such HOPE in these uncertain times.Samuel has certainly lived up his name and calling…send me! May God’s peace abide with those who knew and loved Samuel.

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  144. “HE died on the cross for me
    HE saved my life“
    Samuel had wisdom from above

    As a former BSF CL this is the promise of seeds being planted and The Spirit drawing Samuel unto The Lord.

    ✝️ So grateful that one day I will see Jesus face to face and Samuel will be there too.

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  145. Samuel is preaching in his own way. Your story helped me see the need to urgently tell others the good news so that they may be saved. Thank you

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  146. God is so faithful to give us what we need! This warms my heart so much! I lost my husband and love of my life to Early Alzheimer’s almost 10 years ago. He was only 65. And I too felt God had prepared me and continued to guide and lead me through the disease – – I too had studied in BSF and His Word filled my heart and prepared me for some truly dark days. But I know where he is – and just like Samuel, he’s healed and whole! We are so loved! God is so so faithful! I too praise Him and long for Heaven!

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  147. I loved Samuel’s Psalm! I lost two granddaughters in a drowning accident in 2003… they were 4 and 6 years old. I hope they made it to Heaven but it would only be through a child’s innocence because they were raised and buried as Muslims. I don’t have the same assurance for them that Catherine has for Samuel other than I know God loved them. God bless and comfort all the mothers who lost a child.

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  148. I too have lost a child and the comfort that God gave me was the fact that God is not the God of the dead but of the Living! is what has comforted me.

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  149. So sweet a message from Samuel…may God’s tender mercy comfort you and your family. Keep talking about Samuel, he lives in the gift of his story and in the love of our Lord.

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  150. Thank you for sharing. It is hard to imagine the pain of losing a young son. I have 2 grown sons and 3 beautiful grandchildren. We all have lost loved ones and having the assurance that those loved ones are not really lost but in a much better place with our Lord and Savior is what keeps us going. Samuel grasped at a young age that He looked forward to being with Jesus. We all need to remember that as Blessed as we are in this life,Heaven holds many more Blessings. Not only are we with Jesus but also reunited with our loved ones. May God continue to Bless you and your family as you share with others how wonderful our Savior is in spite of our losses and hardships in this world we have much to look forward to in eternity.

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  151. Samuel ministered to many, only in God’s way ; not the way you envisaged. He still answered your prayer.Glory to God.

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  152. Thank you and bless you and your family for sharing Samual with us. God is an amazing God and He does keep his promises which gives us comfort and great hope in our own lives and loses of loved ones.
    I continue to love and praise him as well as to pray a circle around my own children and grandchildren specifically but also around mankind in these times.

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  153. What blessing and encouragement these words are. Hope in the midst of tragedy-young Samuel’s written words.

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  154. May God bless this family. Thank you for sharing your story. I cried as I was convicted for saying with my lips, I give back to God what He trusted to me. But, in my heart it was not true. My prayer is that my faith and trust in God is that I’m able to give God my daughter. As I write this, I remembered God gave His only Son for my life. So Father I thank you for giving my daughter to me and now I trust You with her life!

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  155. Catherine….. thank you for sharing your son. He is the prefect example of the greater good. I do not have children but could only hope to reach a place in my faith that I could willingly say I would give up my husband who is most precious to me. While I understand this is how I should feel I don’t. Thank you again for sharing. It has stirred my heart & mind.

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  156. What a touching and life changing experience! An encouragement that storms come into our lives but God doesn’t want us to get stuck in the dark, He remembers us and opens the door so that we can get out!
    Catherine, I’m touched by your story and encouraged to know that our “Rock of ages” is in control. RIP Samuel.

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  157. Thank you, thank you dear Catherine for sharing your journey of your precious son, Samuel – your faith & trust in our God is very inspiring. To hear of how God went before & is the Great Provider & Comforter was so touching.
    Very moving – much love and prayers for you & your family. XXX

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  158. Precious precious!! Just beautiful. Praising God for your encouraging words and testimony!! GOD REMEMBERED!!
    Thankyou for sharing

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  159. Dear Catherine-

    Thank you for sharing glimpses of how you have seen God at work in your life through the loss, on this side of eternity, of your precious son. May God wrap you in His loving arms, and bless you, your husband, and your boys with His perfect peace, and may every thought of Samuel bring each of you joy. What a blessing to have the assurance that because Jesus has gone before us to heaven, He has opened wide the doors for us, and we will see Him and our loved ones there.

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  160. Thanks for sharing this story. Lately I have had several friends die. Maybe I can share some of these thoughts like s/he is risen. Your godly training was evident. I loved the rainbow car picture. ?

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  161. Catherine,
    Thank you fir sharing your story with us. I am so very sorry for your tragic loss. I two have lost a child and understand the grief you are experiencing.
    Your trust and faith are such an inspiration to me. They are a reminder that God does not leave us or forsake us even though it came seem that way.
    May you continue to sense His comfort and abiding presence as you walk this journey. What a precious little guy! I know he is missed.

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  162. This story on Samuel touched my heart. What faith he had for his age; what a beautiful psalm Samuel wrote. Praise the Lord he had such wonderful Christ-filled parents to nurture that faith – that love for our Father and Savior. Thank you for posting this story. I want to send it to a friend who is grieving the loss of her mom.

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  163. God bless you Catherine for sharing. Am blessed and inspired

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  164. What an amazing story. My heart grieves for Catherine & her loss. I have 3 boys too & I can’t imagine the grief of losing one. What a great testimony that life is short & God is in control & he comforts those who seek him. Thanks for your faithfulness Catherine to share your story.

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  165. A beautiful portrait of God, His promises, life, and eternity.

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  166. Thanks for sharing your story, I am so moved and touched by it! We do have a very limited understanding of our life’s journey on this earth! But, I do believe that Samuel was every bit of a great man of God, as God expected and then revealed to you and now us what he can do in a short 7 years. Your son, Samuel captured for us what most of us miss in a lifetime on earth.

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  167. Dear Catherine thank u for sharing yr personal journey . May God continue to use yr story to encourage others n to give them the hope so needed at their time of loss. Samuel’s poem is so beautiful – simple and edifying to the Lord. His life has and will continue to minister to many others because he is the Lord’s.

    I am blessed and remindered through your sharing of the hope that we hold onto of better things to come than the transient life we have now.

    May God continue to deepen yr faith, love and hope as u draw closer to Him each new day. Wishing u and yr family God’s blessings and comfort as u press forward in trust n faith ?

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  168. This is such a reminder of how deep and how wide God’s love is. We are so loved.

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  169. Catherine, what a comforting blog! I pray that the Lord remembers you as he did with Noah.

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  170. I am brought to tears by your words of trust and faith Catherine. Only God can give this kind of strength that you are speaking of. He is so good and He is Sovereign. Thank you for sharing this and for sharing Samuel’s Psalm ❤️❤️

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  171. I am lost for words. Thank you for sharing this. What a blessing Samuel’s psalm is to me!

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  172. We stay before a wall of not understanding, but we know he is here and we praise him before this wall. We do not know, when things will change suddenly and led us see and understand before a broken wall or a wall we can step over.

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  173. Thank you for sharing your story and for your example of faith, Catherine! There is surely purpose in our pain. And isn’t this worship? Allowing Him to be glorified in our deepest struggles? May God restore and bless you and your family.

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  174. Thank you Catherine for sharing your story. Reading your story has strengthened and inspired me to look to God in pain and listen to what He has to say through each pain. I have found comfort in reading about your son Samuel and believe me his story is still impacting others.

    Thank you very much

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  175. Dear Catherine, thank-you for sharing with us. Such an incredible encouragement to us to see God’s provision, to see how God prepared you and Samuel, and to see God’s presence amidst your suffering. May you find increasingly longer moments of rest in His presence

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  176. Sad & Sorry for the lost but more than pains and suffering, after reading this story of Catherine am touched and encouraged by the way she clinged to the word of God, “The Promise” and responded positively.

    God is always with you Catherine.
    will pray for you.

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  177. Thank you for sharing your story of faith and trusting God. I believe He will comfort us in all of our trials and tribulations we experience in life. I prayed and asked him to prepare me for my Mother’s home going. I thought something was wrong with me because I could not cry. I felt a sense of relief and joy believing she was with Him. I believed she was happy, at peace and pain free. God answers prayers. He will never leave us or forsake us. I hope and pray when the storms of life come our faith is our shield. His word is true and He will help us all to withstand the challenges of life.

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  178. What a testimony! May the love and faithfulness of God reach every half humanity and be real.

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  179. Catherine’s story is a balm that reassures that God comforts us in our trials and sorrow with His Word, and through blessed assurance. May we all bring a childlike faith such as Samuel’s to the foot of the cross, embracing the love of our Lord who meets us where we are.

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  180. thank u Catherine for sharing your grief and thoughts I still cant take in the magnitude of a loss of child and the overwhelming faith which can lead one through, sometimes I imagine a situation like that but quickly fast forward…God presence be with you and our prayers

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  181. Catherine Thank you for sharing your story – the pain and the journey with God. What a powerful testimony – truly for the saving of many hurting hearts! I thank God you chose to let Him in , may we all do so in our hard times. More grace to you !

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  182. Thanks for sharing really encouraged to see how you faithfully trusted God. Am being challenged by Noah being obedient and have faith God.

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  183. Thank God for comforting Catherine.
    But is there hope and comfort when we lost a loved one who rejected God?

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  184. Thank you Catherine for sharing your story. God always remembers. Such an encouragement. God bless you and uphold you. ?

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  185. Samuel you are a gem engraved with the Promise of God! ??

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  186. Oh, Catherine I am so moved my your blog. You have shown me God’s Faithfulness through out every word written. You have brought Samuels life alive to me.He is a beautiful chosen child of God. Thank you so much for sharing. Prayers and blessings to you, your husband and your two sons. Thank you for your dedication to the ministry of BSF in Christ Jesus!

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  187. Yes,God preparrs us for fiery trials and we walk past it by His strength

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  188. Thank you for sharing Samuel’s Psalm and how God is deepening your faith during this tragic loss and pain. My heart grieves for you and your family.

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  189. Thank you Ms Catherine for your Trust in the Lord!
    This is a Brave testamony.
    Praise God that he equipped you to share such a painful time in your Life.Receive Beauty for Ashes in the name of Jesus.
    God Bless you my sister in the Lord.
    Blessings
    Ms.Manzanares

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  190. Catherine has trust in God who will heal her brokenness. Amen

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  191. Oh God i know you reign and you do it forever. Give me the power to always stay strong when things go bad.Samuel is an Angel for Catherine and for all of us.Amen

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  192. Beautiful story! Thank you so much for sharing! So much to think about and remember. Your little man inspires many❤️❤️

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    • Thank so much Catherine for these words of encouragement. I also lost my husband of 33 years suddenly. He was also called Samuel. The pain was so excruciating, and I was devasted. As Christians, pain, trials, temptations, troubles and tribulations are all part of our Christian walk. Reading through your story has given me a lot of strength to trust Him completely with my everything. My strength is also drawn from Romans 8:18 “I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.” During those trying time in my life, God demonstrated His love, care and provision to me and my children in a way I did not imagine. And reading the story of Noah in BSF study, I was encouraged to know that, when we obey God and walk with him faithfully, He will never forsake us in our time of difficulties , trials and tribulations. I can confidently say God remembered me when I was in great distress for the lost of my dear husband. In Romans 8:28 says, And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose. The pain of loosing a loved one never goes away but God has given me the inner peace which transcends what the world gives. Catherine, thanks so much. May the Almighty God continue to comfort you and give you strength. May the gentle soul of Samuel rest in perfect peace. I care!!!

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    • Be encouraged Catherine your son Samuel is in a better place. I have picked a truth I have struggled with, to fully give my children to God.Thanks for reminding us that,Our children belong to God and may He take control of the ones who have gone astray.

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  193. This is very sad. I will be praying for Catherine.

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    • Hi Catherine.

      I’m still teary but proud of your strong faith. Samuel is in a great place and full of heavenly smiles.

      It is well.

      May God bless you and your family – always.

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  194. Catherine, God Bless You♥️ May you feel Jesus’ presence always. During the good days as well as the bad days. I pray for you and your family to find comfort through the life you had with Samuel.
    Much love to you all ♥️?

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    • Such a beautiful story of God bringing beauty from ashes. May God continue to wrap His arms of peace and comfort around your family Catherine. Thank you for sharing Samuel’s story. What a precious faith he had. I love his proclamation Psalm. And the faith of a little child will lead them ❤️

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  195. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. It’s difficult to read about the loss of a child, but I am strengthened by your trust in the Lord. A friend just lost a family member and I was trying to console her today. I told her that God will give her the perfect song, or the perfect Bible verse, right when she needs it. Instead, God gave me this Blog to pass on to her. I know this story will give her comfort. Thank you. God bless you!

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    • I too lost a child who was 33 in earthly years. You never forget nor get over the loss of a child.
      It is wonderful to use this grief in glorifying God. It is also wonderful that her child knew God intimately. May God bless her and her family as they continue to mourn this gift from God.

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  196. Hi Catherine.
    I was very touched n edified with the incident that happened. I can relate how you feel. I was a mother to three beautiful children. We attend church every Sunday, cell groups n other ministries as well. My husband n I brought up our children in the Christian way. They loved the Lord very much. My two older children plays the guitar n sing worship songs during cell groups. They hv also acted in Church plays. But something terrible happened in 2013. My eldest daughter who was 20 then was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. My fly was devastated but we didn’t give up. We prayed n many pastors hv prayed for her n comforted us that she will be well again. Our faith n trust was in the Lord. But sadly, she passed on in Nov 2014. We were heart broken n angry with the Lord. Why Lord! Why! We hv done so much for you, we attend church n etc! etc! I begin to question my faith. My heart was so broken that I cld hardly pray. I had to gather myself again for my other two children. We started going back to church n going about with things. In Jan 2016, another tragedy happened. My second son who was 20+ passed away. My heart beat stopped for a moment. I was going insane n I cried to the Lord. Why Lord! Why put us in this situation? What hv we done wrong. Why do you punish me? I hated God. I hated every pastors. I hated church. For about a year, we didn’t go to church. I was going crazy n insane. After much struggles, I met up a friend n we decided to hv a prayer group. Through this prayer grp, I hv been strengthened by the Lord. He moulded, me fill me n used me. My youngest girl is now 17. The Lord has great plans for her life. I’m also doing BSF bible studies in Malaysia. My passion is to teach children the Bible n to tell them that God loves them n He is the Creator of the universe. He wants us to hv a relationship with him. Sorry for being so long. I liked to write in detailed everything pertaining to God. God bless ?

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    • Praying for you Agnes, that everyday God shows you how much love He has for you! That you continue in Faith and Hope of the promise. May God bless you and your family!

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  197. Thank you for sharing such a beautiful testimony.

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  198. Thank you so much for sharing your pain on losing your sweet Samuel. I appreciate your mother’s heart. This psalm by Samuel blessed me so much as I go through four years of painful change in my life. I know God is faithful and I can definitely trust him. Blessings

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  199. Very motivating. This story helps me during this time of my struggles in keeping my faith strong.

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  200. Thank you so much for sharing your faith and beautiful story with us, Catherine. I grieve with you but praise God for the promise of eternity, His word and His peace that passes understanding.

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  201. Your story has blessed me. The Psalm he wrote tells you about his precious heart and his love for Jesus. That is a gift from God to you to cherish until you see him again—and you will!

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  202. As I think of my children and now my grandchildren, I know that the only way to live is with my hands wide open to whatever God has for me. Should I ever have to go through a similar situation, I know that I can trust that same God who opened the door to the ark and sends the rainbow after the rain, to give me the grace to trust Him through that difficult time.
    Unfortunately, I know that sometimes He has to loosen my fingers as I want to hold them to myself. I can trust Him through that also.

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  203. You encouraged me so much tonight as I read this letter I offered my only daughter up to him she came to us by way of adoption and has and is the best gift God could have given us but if God decides to ever take her home before He takes me I can say thank you for allowing me to be her mother and teaching her all about Jesus for today she walks with him and He is hers and my task has been completed ❤️

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  204. Catherine and Samuel, I can’t wait to meet both of you in heaven!

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  205. Dear Catherine: Thank you so much for sharing your little Sam with us. His line in the Psalm “I am so insited to go to heven” just made me cry. That in itself should give you such comfort that your darling got his heart’s desire. Through Jesus Christ our Lord you will be reunited with him in glory. Amen

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  206. What an encouragement in such times

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  207. What a great example to understand and accept the way God saved us through His righteous way!

    God is faithful.

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  208. Wow !!! Remarkable! I could read Samuel’s letter over and over.

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  209. Thank you, Catherine, for sharing such inspiring testimony with us. You have painted a beautiful picture of what hope and joy look like when God is with you even in the midst of a tragedy. Your unshakable faith is an encouragement to us all that with God by our side, we can have confidence to go through any circumstances in life. Your story of faith is empowering and uplifting.

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  210. Samuel’s story has touched yet another life, mine. Thank you for sharing his life and love for Jesus. God is so good as He graciously provides comfort and care through life here on earth. What a precious little boy who left a precious testimony that has blessed so many.

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  211. Thank you for this story, Catherine! It sounds like the Lord revealed His glory to you in different ways after Samuel’s death. What a blessing!

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  212. I know that it must be insurmountably hard to lose a child. Samuel’s story breaks my heart, but it also gives me hope. If Samuel’s mom could give her precious child to God, then it is sooo much easier for me to trust God with my more trivial issues and problems. Thank God for a mother who is trusting in God, and took the time to write this touching story.

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    • Thank you for this encouraging story. My Hope in the Lord has been restored… Surely God is faithful and blameless!

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  213. Bless u!! Such a kind and uplifting story…..

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  214. At this time of much grief and loss, I appreciate this account of young Samuel. In the beginning
    of my BSF experience in the 1990″s, I expressed , during class, that I questioned that the level of my faith could be as that of John when he was imprisoned and Jesus was out ministering to people with signs and wonders. God gave me an experience to prepare for an early death, and I cannot
    express the calm , the peace and confidence I experienced. One of my friend’s accepted
    Christ when she questioned my faith during that time. Keep telling your story…someone is waiting to hear.

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  215. Praise the Lord! God seems to always know how to work out everything my Lord. He knows how to bring so much peace in the mist of every storm. Every unknown though or care that that we have God places them in the palm of his hands. Our heavenly father is so gentle with his children and always find a way to comfort us! I praise him and thank him ! When I am weak I praise and lay in his arms! When I am strong I praise him and lift up my hand to heaven . Samuel love for god was so pure and real he is in heaven having a blessed time still thanking Christ for such blessed parents for teaching him about the love of Christ.

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  216. This story came at a.time.when a.family known to. my son.just found their 21year.old.son.dead. As i.read.this i kept wishing.this.grieving.family could read it and maybe find peace.

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  217. Samuel is a true child of God, thank God for his life and you Mummy for the love of God in you. God use you to introduce Samuel to Christ many parents could not do that your experience touched my life am encouraged.
    The God of the mountain is still God in the valley and the God of the good time is still God in the bad time and the God of the day is still God in the night may God continue to help you more and more amen.

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    • I am so

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  218. Having gone through a similar tragedy (22 year old son, one car accident) I identify with the “preparing” part of Catherine’s story. My faith became mine about 3 years after Nick was born in 1983. It grew from then with Bible studies, worship and wonderful mentors. When Nick died suddenly in 2003 I also felt that “joy in all circumstances” because I had a solid foundation in Christ. It took a long time to build the “faith house” back where I could quit questioning God, but the foundation was solid so I stayed in His care.
    Thank you for sharing.

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    • Só sorry to hear of Nick only God can comfort such a loss may I never experience the loss of my only daughter but if it should happen may He be my strength to carry on
      Blessings
      Elie

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  219. My thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time, and I pray the Lord will continue to cause HIS face to shine over you and your family and to overshadow you with His enormous Love and Peace.

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  220. A beautiful woman of God. Sharing one of the worst times in life that listening for God and listen and to God makes all the difference in our shadow life. Blessings to her.

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  221. Beautiful!! Very encouraging and thankful He’s given you such a gift in your grief!!??

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  222. I read your story and my heart was filled with all sorts of feelings. Looking at the picture of Samuel, and every thing that goes with that took my breath away. I was almost finished reading it, when I read the sentence that said, “But God remembered Noah…” I’ve read that sentence many times before. But the next sentence is where the emotions took over…”as His people, we too have confidence that God remembers us.” That’s when the tears started to flow. I was unprepared for it. Something about that sentence struck a deep satisfying cord inside. Thank you so much for sharing your story. It left an indelible impression on my heart.

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  223. This inspired me because I also in pain because of the loss of my husband due to covid. I questioned God , later on I prayed and asked for wisdom for me to understand his reason . I was truly blessed with your testimony and enlightened that God’s plan is perfect and and good for his children.

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  224. Catherine, what a blessing it is to know the gift our children are to us. Our 19 year old son Bevan, just went in his sleep – no warning at all 10 years ago. But as soon as he was discovered. Two things the Lord calmed me with: He was his gift to us! – How precious it was to be blessed with this child. And I saw God’s fingerprints everywhere! – We often ask – why Lord? How often do we say: Why not Lord! – Yes, it is the hardest journey. But I too, received His joy unexplainable in the trusting His ways are Higher. To not be angry at God is also a blessing. To see Bevan’s broken friends, was a time for ministry too. We don’t know whether our son will “make it into heaven. But we rest in Him, who knows everything. I love your ‘letting go’ – interestingly we had too, given Bevan to the Lord, and now the other 3 children also. What does God say now, about our lives; go and be a blessing to others… and so we do, He has equipped us humbly to show His empathy…. for He too, had a son who died.

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  225. Powerful! Causes me to ponder my trust propensity in our sovereign Saviour.

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  226. I lost a very special grandson in a motorcycle accident. He was 24 years old and I too thought he would a great man of God. God had told years a go that my grandson was going to be a mighty man of God. I pictured him as man who would share Jesus. At first, the pain was almost unbearable, but within hours, I felt such a peace. The Lord was there, couldn’t miss Him. For his funeral, there were all sorts of people who shared with us that he was fantastic young man and I knew then what God had meant when He told me he would be a great man of God. He never shied away from life- always met it head on. He had a twinkle in his eyes from birth. When things settled down and I really begun to listened to the Lord, He told me that he (my grandson) was ready to come home. So, I know that he is with the Lord and I am sure that he is alive and joyful with his new home.

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  227. Thank you for sharing! Glory to God for His work in you and through you and Samuel.

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  228. Dear Catherine, I thank you for that beautiful testimony is was a blessing to my soul again thank you, may God continue to bless you with his divine wisdom.

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  229. There is nothing like the gift of seeing His preparations for what we will face. I wish I had written them all down. Such sweet sorrows. Man, ugh.
    Be a happy kid of God’s and bring Him joy. Was my take away. I know I will have sad times and while I do not I pray to make God smile. It must be hard to be God.

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  230. Thank You for this Precious testimony of Grace Love Surrender to Our Lord’s Will even when it is the most difficult one to bear as a Mom.Your Samuel completed his earth mission early and left a legacy for all of us to marvel at his Purity of Faith in Our Lord. Praying for the Eternal Peace and Holy Presence that does passéth all understanding fill You and Your Dear family now and in All ways. Thank You for Your sharing

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  231. Love this, thank you for sharing!

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  232. what a great blessing! Thank you so much for sharing!

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  233. What a great woman you’re Catherine. God’s comforting you and you’re comforting many others who’ve lost their loved ones. May God be with you and family

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  234. Oh my oh my! We just lost our 32 year old son in July and are deep, deep in the throngs of grief. He was married to his soul-mate which makes us feel we have two losses – our son and “them”. After his death, I knew I needed to immediately return to my journaling ….asking God to show me, teach me, reveal to me the much deeper things of Himself…my cry was “help me lament LORD”. My husband and I had a really tough day today and I came home to read this article. It was as if God was sending me an email from Himself. I NEVER considered the verses of Jesus at the empty tomb. Thank you for your heart-felt honesty and courage in sharing. This entire section on The Flood has caused me to want to journal something about these “floods” that come into our lives and how we, as BSF women of the LORD need to work harder to be better prepared. Our children are “on loan” to us from Him. Cherish every second of every day ladies.

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  235. Beautiful, thank you for sharing ?

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  236. Catherine, hi, I’m Cindy, Jazzy calls me pumpkin. She was in your class a few years ago. Quite the handful.

    Well, I read this article, and my heart aches for you. I can see that by God’s word you have survived one of the hardest trials we could have. I pray for my grandkids, but, I have never considered giving them to Jesus. I will do that.

    My very first grandson was still born. He was almost 9 months in my daughter’s womb. Our first baby was our first loss. We knew immediately, with no hesitation, that he was safe in the Lord’s arms. Yes, we miss not knowing him, not loving him like we wanted to, but we all have complete peace. God definitely knows our hearts and how they can hurt and break. But oh what a great God who heals those pains.

    So, I may know a little bit how you feel. Oh how we wanna hold them tight, but just knowing we will again is enough. We can live because of His promises. What a blessing to be God’s child, to know His sovereignty. He is so good.

    Catherine, I am praying for you. You are in my thoughts. Your Samuel is precious, a real cutie pie. I know he will be missed until you are with him again. What a Glorious day that will be!!!!

    God be with you all the day long!

    Cindy

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  237. The rainbow over Samuel’s head says it all.

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    • Catherine’s story has truly ministered to me, especially Samuel’s Psalm. I’m encouraged to pray for my children and trust God to take care of them either here with me or in Heaven with Him. I will always pray for you Catherine and I know that God’s comfort is with you ?.

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  238. What an amazing article, Bennett.
    Catherine, thank you for gifting all of us with Samuel’s precious story. Your trust to open your hands to God with the lives of your boys has been painfully tested.
    I know that trust is something we are called to do, but in cases like this, it feels almost impossible.
    Your words remind me that every day I must be willing to let go of those I love & to thank God for the time we have together & to trust Him to never leave my side when I am called to such pain & suffering.
    Dear Catherine, He has richly blessed you with precious Samuel & your two other sons.
    I praise God’s name for you & your willingness to tell us about Samuel & your family.
    Blessings & peace to all of you.

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    • This is so comforting to this mom. I lost my 31 year old on July 5, 2020 in a tragic accident. I so remember my screams and cries at receiving the terrible news. I ask God how we (husband, daughter, his daughter we had adopted) were suppose to praise Him for our loss. God has been faithful to guide and speak to us about his life in songs, hymns, journal reading, pictures, and remembrances of our many enjoyable vacations and trips as a family.
      Thank you for sharing. In Christ I pray!

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    • My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time, and I pray the Lord will cause His face to shine on you and will overshadow you with His enormous Love and Peace.

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  239. I was crying and joyful in my heart reading your wrenching testimony. Really thankful for your encouragement during this pandemic time. May God keep strengthen you and heal you through your life and bless more children.

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  240. Thank you for sharing Samuel with us. What an inspiring story for all mothers. God bless you.

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    • God Bless You and your family and thank you for sharing your awesome story and testimony of your love for Jesus your love for your family and Samuels Psalm, such Faith and Wisdom for a little boy. Your Love, Faith, Compassion, Wisdom and your Testimony and Samuels Psalm will be remembered and will help me thru challenges I may experience in my life. Love, Prayers and Peace. Mary

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  241. Thank you so much for sharing, Catherine, about your – God’s – Samuel. And for BSF for sharing it with us in this beautiful way. I cried, touched deeply by Samuel’s Psalm and your life, your walk with Him. Praise to our God of Heaven and Earth for Samuel’s precious faith and his family’s faith in Jesus. So thankful how real He is and how He encourages and lifts us all up through the Body of Christ.

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  242. Thank you for sharing your great loss with us, Catherine. I just went through a miscarriage and lost a child before we even met him or her. Your testimony of faith is an encouraging reminder of where God would have our hearts to be through great grief. I can relate with not being angry at God, but feeling a lot of anger nevertheless at the loss and lack of understanding from others. Grief can feel very isolating, but I also sense the tender arms of our Lord around me by my child. It does make eternity more real and precious.

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  243. Wow!!!! His perfect Love cast out fear or the words that come in mind after reading Samuel’s Psalm.
    I and my neighborhood in Chino Hills California is waiting for the fires ? to be put out.
    However this morning getting up I stood in my kitchen and lifted my arms towards the heavens and proclaimed our Lord’s Faithfulness and committed our home and selves to His will.
    Then a thought came to me “ I have already prepared you for this and I pondered that thought and after reading Catherine’s statement on how the Lord had prepared her and that He allowed it to happen when He knew she trusted Him.
    That blessed my soul!!!
    Thank you Catherine for sharing Samuel with us and continuing to share your season of Joy and Pain.

    I can’t wait to meet Samuel in heaven. ??
    Agape ?

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  244. I too know the pain of the loss of a son. One year ago my son died, but by his own hand. I was with him when as a child he accepted Christ so I am sure of his salvation but this pain is so hard to bear.
    Without the Presence of God thru His word and people it would have been unbearable.

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  245. Till we meet again ….. our God is a promise keeper . May the Lord continue to strengthen you and bless you for your great faith in Jesus . Samuel is adorable and we will meet him again in Heaven ??Be blessed . Thank you for sharing as it has encouraged and blessed me greatly .

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  246. I’m sitting at my desk in my office weeping… Tears of sorrow and joy – all mixed together. I don’t understand everything that God allows in our lives – but I do know that He is good. He takes our ashes and turns them into something beautiful. Far beyond what we can see in ourselves. Thank you for sharing. I am moved to draw even closer to our loving Father, and great Creator. Please know that you/family are in my prayers…

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  247. My face is wet with tears. Tears for your grief and mine. God is so very personable. He gives us what we need to go on. God bless you. Thank you for sharing this.

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  248. Thank you for sharing; you have reminded me that I can trust God with my precious daughter and grandchildren. He is our creator, provider and counselor. Life has lots of twists and turns that can hurt so deeply but God says there will be restoration.

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  249. The confidence we have in God is the fruit of his faithfulness, grace and mercy; our faith is as deepen as our daily relation ship with him. By trusting God we have that assurance that not matter what our trials are, God is by our side; we praise him because he is transforming us, like he did with Catherine. An encouraging history of faith, courage and love.

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    • Thank you for sharing this beautiful story! We see the faith of Samuel in his letter. Catherine, thank for sharing these memories of Samuel & how God has met you in your grief. We see God’s love & mercy on display. Thank you again for sharing your inspiring stoey!!

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  250. That was truly inspiring!

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  251. May God bless you and give you peace

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  252. How beautiful this story is about faith ! And In the storm is when we cling to God even more than ever. Inspired by this amazing story of love for our Lord from a precious child of God!
    Thank you for your story Catherine and sharing Samuel with us.

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  253. Dear Catherine.
    My mums name was also called Cathrine she died on the 8th October so it’s very raw for me.
    Reading this testimony has made me realise how strong my mum was and how much stronger Gods love is for his children.
    My mum also lost a child and her feeling where very much over looked in the 60s they just had to get on with it.. my mum only spoke about it 2 weeks before she died.It made me realise God’s promise that he will never leave us or forsake us. In the natural it’s not possible, but when we cling on to the everlasting arms of God Nothing is impossible.. My mum lost her way with faith and God made a way back to life. I could reassure my mum that if she put her trust in Jesus, she will see her baby again…. This testimony has made me realise today as my mind has been wondering. Is focus on the beauty of things to come. Heaven is real… The suffering of the world is momentary.The best is yet to come.I will pray for you Catherine. Thank you for your courage to share.

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  254. Thank you for sharing!

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  255. Thanks so much for sharing this blog. I have lost two aunts this year and just received news their brother, my uncle, has terminal cancer and given at best two years. I have been praying and grieving to God. A comfort has come over me when I read the paragraph
    For each of us, suffering is real and loss is inevitable. Like Noah, waiting for God to open the door of the ark, we may feel the storms of life tossing us in every direction. But the words of Genesis 8:1 give us insight into God’s character:
    “But God remembered Noah …”
    I needed to be reminded that God remembers those that are waiting on Him to give answers.

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  256. What a blessing your Samual is to us all. Thank you for sharing

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    • Thank u for yr courage to share! I am deeply encouraged by your message.
      Pray for u to be filled everyday with God’s strength, joy and peace as u walk with him in this faith journey

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  257. What an encouragement to all! May God continue to speak to you on those extremely tough days. ???

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  258. It touched my heart! God is so loving and caring as He walks with us through hard times and prepares our loving parent hearts and especially our loved ones for the best of times and the worst of times with His arms around us. God bless!

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  259. Amazing

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    • What a beautiful testimony of faith in God and his care for his children in life and death. Thank you for sharing. ❤

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  260. What an encouragement to me, a children’s leader! The Holy Spirit works in children’s hearts as we present the truth of His word! Glory be to God! What a treasure Samuel is!!

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  261. Praise God for His faithfulness. It is such a comforting and reassuring testimony. Thank you??

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  262. Thank you so very much for this story of faith and surrendering your children to God! You are right! He loves them so much more than even their Moms. I will remember this when I grieve my son lost in addiction and anger. I love the story of Noah as he waited patiently on the Lord. Sweet Sweet Samuel will forever live in my heart!

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  263. What a wonderful testimony and the Psalm should be shared with anyone who has not come to know Jesus. Samuel knew Him!!!!

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  264. Catherine, what a beautiful testimony. I still think of sweet Samuel often.

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  265. Thank you so much for sharing such a beautiful story , may God bless you and keep you and your family, just as he’s done for your son.

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    • Such a wonderful Psalm by a young boy Samuel. Am inspired to grow in true faith and help the young ones to have the same……well done Catherine

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  266. God Bless You! As I’m reading this it takes me back to when my adult son passed away. I too had a moment of joy like I’ve never experienced in my life, ever! I also felt loving warm arms around me, without a doubt it was Jesus. I had to give my son over to the Lord because he was a drug addict, I tried to save him but that was impossible. I asked God once “why couldn’t he have been healed”, the Lord answered “he is healed and whole with me”! I never told anyone but a few months before he died I begged God to take him home and heal him. I’ve felt guilty but I know I shouldn’t.
    Prays to you!

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  267. I loved this testimony! It is such an inspiring testimony.

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  268. Catherine, I can feel your emptiness at the moment you lost your son. I lost 2 daughters in 2018 just six months apart. One in May and one in November.

    My God experience came on Christmas Eve of 2018. I was sitting looking at the tree when the tears, you can’t control, just gushed and I said to God, “I miss my girls so much Father”, He sent a wave of peace over me and I heard so plainly God saying to me, ” you have the tree, gifts and people, your girls are at my table now, they are with me and you will see them again.

    At that point I accepted God’s grace and His Shower of Peace covering me. It was like nothing I’ve ever felt before.

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    • ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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      • To loss a love one will grieve us, but… knowing he/she is in a better place will comfort us. Just believe and trust fully in the Lord for He uses circumstances to guard and build us in our daily life.

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  269. Wonderful & uplifting testimony.. BSF helped me to cope with a similar loss of a loved one. Praise God for the divine comfort that only He can provide.

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  270. What an encouragement to me and I am sure to many others. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. Thank you for letting us get to know Samuel. Thank you for letting us see God and Jesus through Samuel’s heart!

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  271. I’m so touched by Catherine’s story and her heartbreaking loss.
    “Through years of in-depth study as a BSF children’s leader, God equipped Catherine through His Word. He planted His promises in her heart and built a faith to weather the storm. “
    As I read this I realized God had lovingly prepared me for my current storm. I’m not alone in it. It didn’t take God by surprise. He knew it was coming and strengthened my faith in preparation, through BSF, a strong group of godly women around me, and a true understanding of who God is. As I sit here and cry over my own loss I’m giving God thanks for being my sovereign faithful Savior.

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  272. What a beautiful testimony of trusting God with ALL things, including our most precious blessings. Thank you for sharing Samuel’s story.

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  273. Praying ?? for Catherine and her family and loved ones. What a beautiful Psalm Samuel wrote for all of us to read & pray
    Catherine “Kitty” Green BSF OHIO

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    • Is there Anyway that we could get Catherine’s address in Wales to send her a card?

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  274. Samuel’s praise of God is astounding! No wonder God chose him to be with him in heaven. This is truly an uplifting story of a Mother’s love. God bless you all.

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  275. Needed desperately to hear this today. Thank you.

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    • Catherine, your story takes me back to the day our 10yr old died in auto accident. I feel your pain and also the joy that comes only from our loving Lord Jesus who meets us right where we are. God’s promise of walking those streets of gold & seeing Jesus face to face!
      Praying for you & family

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