Grief, Guilt and God’s Goodness

Discovering God’s comfort through a lifetime of grief

By Bethany Lockett – BSF Editorial Assistant

After decades of grief and pain, Sandy Stubbs finally felt ready to share her story. During last year’s BSF Share Day, Sandy walked to the microphone, took a deep breath, and gestured to the road behind the church where her class gathered.   

“You know that (traffic) light up there?” she began. “That light was put there because of my child’s death.”  

As she recounted her sorrow, Sandy also reflected on God’s abounding love as He continued to give her peace and hope in her darkest moments. 

But, as she would soon learn, her story was not over. God would miraculously extend His comfort once again. This time, through an unknown connection to a listening BSFer. 

Walking with grief 

Forty-six years earlier, Sandy woke up in the intensive care unit at a local hospital. Unable to move and in immense pain, Sandy sobbed. 

Earlier that day, while driving with her 5-year-old son, David, Sandy’s car was struck by a drunken driver. When she regained consciousness after the accident, she was told that a nurse had already taken her son to the hospital. She assumed he was mostly unharmed.   

In the ambulance, Sandy kept herself awake by imagining doctors rolling her past her young, scared child in the hospital. She planned to tell him everything was going to be all right.  

But when they arrived, Sandy discovered that her son had been taken to a different hospital and his injuries were extensive.

David died later that night.

Days later, as she lay in her hospital bed, Sandy wondered, “What kind of world is this if cruel people are allowed to live and little David, who could not even make an angry face … this innocent child … had been taken? How can there be a God?” 

Through her pain, Sandy cried out to God. All she could manage was to say “God if you’re real and if you’re there, help!”

She described a sudden feeling that a “10-gallon bucket of peace” was dumped on her head, covering her completely and providing instant comfort. After this experience, Sandy and her husband, David, accepted the gospel and clung to the comfort that they would see their son again in Heaven.

After Sandy recovered, she and her husband had three more children. They celebrated birthdays, Christmases, and school graduations. Life seemed hopeful.

But their journey of grief was not over.

As Sandy’s daughter grew into a young adult, she began to abuse drugs. Sandy prayed persistently and shared her faith.

Tragically, Sandy’s daughter died at the age of 21. 

The couple was devastated. Once again, they found themselves mourning the loss of a beloved child. 

As Sandy and her husband sorted through their daughter’s belongings, they discovered a journal with a small cross. The journal included Scripture, a plan of salvation and these simple words:

“If you think it’s funny that I have this cross, know this … I belong to Jesus.”

Once again, Sandy experienced God’s gracious comfort that she would see her child again.

Living with guilt

Although she held to this hope, Sandy continued to be overwhelmed by guilt and grief. She felt like a failure as a mother. She even called herself a “50 percenter,” because in her mind she had only been able to keep half of her children alive.

Although she had never spoken about her feelings to anyone else, Sandy shared her struggle with a dear friend. Together, they prayed for Sandy’s freedom from guilt.

“That night when I went to bed, I was awakened by this thought; I know it came from God. It was, ‘Sandy, what do you want for your children? What is your heart’s desire for your children?’”

“And I said, ‘God, I want them to worship you and serve you. I want their lives to glorify you.’ It was like He spoke to me and said, ‘Well, 50 percent of them are here with me right now, in person, glorifying me. It’s the other two you’ve got to worry about.’” 

Sandy realized she was a 50 percenter — she’d just been focusing on the wrong 50 percent!  

Reborn in grace

As Sandy stood before her BSF class less than a year ago, sharing her story, she talked not only about losing her son and mourning her daughter. She also shared about God’s enduring faithfulness and her deliverance from guilt.  

Finally, Sandy felt free.

But her story was still not over.

As she collected her belongings, a fellow BSFer approached. 

The woman asked, “Did anyone ever tell you that a nurse picked up your son and took him to the hospital?”

Sandy recounted how the hope of David’s survival had kept her alive in those moments.

Locking eyes, the woman said, “I am that nurse.” 

For the first time, Sandy learned that 46 years ago this woman had driven by the accident and stopped to respond. She was not only a nurse, but the head of her trauma department. A bystander with a connection to the city government ordered a police escort to the hospital at the nurse’s request. David arrived at the hospital before Sandy was transported from the scene of the accident.

“God in His mercy gave my child absolutely the best care on his way to Heaven,” Sandy said. “There I was, still in the car, and my child was already being cared for.”

“I’m telling you God has given me every opportunity to be comforted. I mean He has [been there] in the strife and heartache and trouble and trial. How can anyone doubt a God who sends a police escort to the hospital?”

“God is good. He is pure good.” 

God’s goodness

Through our own suffering, we can relate to the pain of sin and death in this life. We grieve losses, experience doubt, struggle with guilt, and wonder whether God is really good after all. Even as we recount Jesus’ death, resurrection, and ascension in Matthew 26-28, we so often identify with the sorrow and suffering of the crucifixion and lose sight of the victory of Christ’s resurrection.

But, like Sandy, we trust that God is listening to our cries for help. In our moments of sorrow, we know the story is not complete. Will you allow God to bring you unexpected comfort today? Will you ask him to be present with you in your darkest moments?

“God is good. He is pure good.” 

Bethany Lockett

Editorial Assistant

Bethany Lockett is an editorial assistant at Bible Study Fellowship Headquarters. She is a third generation BSF-er and native Texan. She joined BSF after graduating from Wheaton College where she studied spiritual discipleship in a digital world.

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209 Comments

  1. What a beautiful testimony of God’s continuous goodness and support even when we are least aware of it. Thank you for sharing your pain, Sandy.. Pain indeed makes us so vulnerable. May God strengthen you and use you.

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  2. Thank you sharing for your story Sandy in this public space. I cried for you. I found comfort in hearing your hurting heart not for one but for the loss of two beautiful children. How good is God to search you out and heal your broken heart. And the connections he brought in your life in his timing. I love how God cares.

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  3. Oh this story is so good. I lost my daughter and 2 grandchildren. I did struggle with losing all 3 but I know they are in a good and glorious place. I miss them and cannot wait to be reunited with them.
    I did feel guilty because my daughter was a little wild and I was tired of worrying about her and my grandchildren. I was happy when she moved away nearer to her dad. And then they were murdered. If only If only If only…
    Now 17 years later it has allowed me to share how God has walked me through this tragedy. My daughter was a believer and the children were 9 years old and 9 months old.

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  4. My sister died 3 weeks ago today. Yesterday was a bad day. She was a believer and so am I. I know I will see her again she has no more pain. But I miss her so much. Thanks for sharing your story.

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    • Jeanne – praying God’s eternal comfort covers you today! Praying with you

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  5. This testimony continues to bear fruitful witness to the goodness of God, opening our eyes to his work in our past.

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  6. This bought tears to my eyes thank you for sharing

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  7. Even when our circumstances are painful and overwhelming, God is and always be who He is. He is love. He is a Comforter. He is Abba Father! Fathers protect and love on their children. The word says “He will never leave us or forsake us”, and His Word will not return to Him void. He doesn’t leave us when we are hurting. We often don’t feel His presence because we get focused on our pain and on our anger. I lost an adult child who was 33, however, miracle after miracle occurred during my son’s years before and even after his car accident at 21. So glad Sandy allowed God to heal her, because without Him it is next to impossible to properly heal from grief.

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  8. I read Sandy’s testimony of God’s goodness in her life, I have tears in my eyes, God is merciful to me, I am a widow and sometime I feel lonely and sad but through it all, I am learning to trust GOD.

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    • Virgie – we love you! So grateful Sandy’s story resonated with you. So grateful for our BSF family

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  9. What a powerful testimony! God is indeed good!

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  10. I lost a five year old child in a car accident and have felt the guilt of being the driver. Thank you for this story. I have released my guilt to God.

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  11. What an amazing story of cross!
    Thank you for sharing your story. I lost my best friend couple of month ago. We’ve been BF for 37 years. He overdosed on painkillers, prescription drug. When I heard he died, I literally fell to my knees and wailed. I howled. I felt shocked. Then, I felt nothing. I was numb and disconnected, I completely shut down. I felt dead inside. It was so hard to deal with difficult emotions…guilt, anger, sadness, shame and regret. It was so overwhelming. But once again, I decided to trust the Lord and that I will see Bobby again. I know my God is faithful, gracious and merciful. I’m so thankful that God had put B in my path so many years ago to saved me from the destructive life I was living at the time. God sees and hears your cry…He heard my cry 37 years ago and saved me through B. Thank you Lord!

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  12. This blog gave me so much comfort today. Although I am dealing with a different kind of guilt dealing with handling my parents’ dementia, I am experiencing the same sense of Gods comfort and grace in my life.

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  13. It is great to read that God is with our children who passed on and honestly they are better off there than what they would be here with us. What I considered a loss was a gain for my child. And for me.Thank you.

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  14. Sandy, I want to thank you for your testimony, it was beautiful and it touched my heart immensely.
    I lost my granddaughter a year ago on Memorial weekend, due to drugs and alcohol. I have lived with guilt that I couldn’t help her more. I tried so hard for many years. I wished that I could of saved her. I still struggle with that guilt at times. She had a son, and he is a split image of his mom. I know one day that I will see her again in Heaven. God is so Good!!! All the time.
    Then I lost my favorite Aunt on Labor Day weekend. In between there several cousins. I went into a spiral of deep depression. Again God reached down and grabbed me, and wrapped His tender arms around me and rescued me from that ugly pit. I’m alive again!! Thank you Lord for all that you do in the mist of it all. I’ve learned too rely on His Goodness, Mercy, and Grace not mine.

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  15. Re- reading this testimony is such an encouragement that God’s grace is always sufficient even in the most challenging seasons in our lives.
    I will use Sandy’s testimony to encourage a group member whose son went to be with the Lord as we were getting to the end of the study. May we all be encouraged whatever the circumstances, God is ever present in times of need!

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  16. What a beautiful cross story. Thank you.

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  17. I was saved as a result of Little David’s death. A friend had been trying to get me to go to church with her and I resisted. Little David was my daughter’s age and I couldn’t bear the thought of losing her. I went to church with the friend and heard the gospel for the first time. I didn’t know that Jesus had died to take my sins away. God used this tragedy to reach me, to his glory. Thank you Lord!

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  18. I loved this it was so encouraging and I agree that God is good pure good!

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  19. What an amazing display of God’s grace, and mercy!!

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  20. After losing three brothers in 22 months I’ve struggled with grief and anguish and unanswered questions. Four hours after I got the message of my youngest brother’s illness, he was gone. Didn’t even talk to him. Thanks for sharing the comfort the comfort that God gives Sandy.

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  21. Thank you Sandy for sharing your story. I lost my Mom 6 months ago and My daughter last week. Your story has encouraged me to have hope of meeting them again in heaven

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  22. He’s in it all…even the hard we cannot begin to understand. What a amazing, beautiful story of God’s love and mercy. Thank you Sandy for sharing your story.

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  23. Wow!!!!!!!!!TANKS to every commenter , the reporter and Sandy – To God be the glory – He is GOOD!!!!! toooooooo good to be true and that for evermore. WOOWW!!!!

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  24. To Bethany,

    Just read Sandy’s story. It was so moving. Thank you for the work you do. I love you and I am so proud of your work. God bless you dear granddaughter. Grandma Garver

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  25. This story has encouraged me soo much, some time last year i was asking, can a cancer Patient say”God is good?,all the time.?My sister in law who is younger Than me had gotten that diagnosis. It’s now 2 years and thank God she is alive and better,but 3 others of my friends,have gone to be with the Lord.
    Yes God is good, allthe time, and all the time God is good,and that’s His nature.Wow, that’s a greeting in Churches here in Uganda.

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  26. My daughter died in 2018 from ovarian cancer. My brother followed 2 weeks later from pancreatic cancer. I honestly didn’t think i would survive the immense pain and anger I felt during that time. I know they are in Heaven worshiping the Savior but there are still times I am overwhelmed. God’s grace is walking me slowly and I’m more peace filled than I’ve ever been. God IS good, pure, through and through good. Thanks for this story!”Ginger

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  27. Thank you so much Sandy for sharing your journey. Although you felt said you felt like a 50 per center at times, you spoke of how God who is 100 percent (and more). I have never read the BSF blog before and your story touched me so much.Thank you for telling His story in your story!!!

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  28. What a wonderful example of our Lord’s work in comforting you, Sandy. At unexpected times following these tragedies in your life! Thank you so much for sharing your story.

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  29. Thank you for sharing the story. God transforms our heart by extreme events. It depends on how stubborn the heart is. But on the bright side, this life is short, once the heart has been transformed, we will be with God forever. So it all worths it!

    May God’s will be done! May God’s plan for you be fulfilled!

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  30. What a clear message that God is everywhere caring for us. I am grateful for my life as a Christian woman since I can remember, I now know again the mercy God has for us. I am blessed.

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  31. Thank you for sharing. Our testimonies are just as much for us as others.

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    • Thank you for sharing ❤️. Some times it seems God is not there but the truth is that the plans he has for us are for good. God is forever faithful.

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  32. Thank you for sharing Sandy’s story. We may never know how many lives God has used Sandy’s story to touch. Experiencing a different kind of loss and trusting God for the outcome he has ordained. To God be the glory!

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  33. Thank you for sharing your story. May God continue to bless you as you continue to serve Him.

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  34. Awesome testimony!

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  35. Finding this blog came at the right time. We have had a tragedy in our church family, losing a 14 yr old due to a shooting accident.

    This accident has me thinking, “Would I be able to grab Gid tighter and lean in to Him deeper if this happened to my immediate family? I would hope so, yet in all honesty, I don’t want to know.

    It gets me thinking about my adult children how 2 of them are seriously angry, and what will it take for our God to reach them and bring them closer to him, and will it be before their children are affected? That is a frightening thought. Yet, Sandy’s words from God that 50% of her children are worshiping Him is comforting, in some way.

    I don’t know why I am sharing any of this except maybe because the pain of life is so uncomfortable, and maybe that is why I don’t want to consider what God’s perfect will might be for my children. And yet, I do believe that He alone is good all of the time. I just don’t understand his ways of goodness.

    Thanks for sharing Sandy’s story.

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  36. Thank you Sandy! It’s a timely encouragement from our Lord. Praise the Lord for He knows each of us and our needs!

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  37. What an “Awesome” testimony!!! Thank you for sharing it with me!!!

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  38. Wow, that was so encouraging. A different perspective for sure, the 50 percenter, focusing on the wrong 50%.
    Food for thought. And a verse that drew me into BSF was “Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that proceededth out of the mouth of God”

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  39. I can relate to the loss of a child. He is with the Lord. I know how it feels to miss them.

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  40. Thank you for this article. My beloved daughter lost her battle with Bi-polar depression last year. I also lost an infant son 36yrs ago. I have been struggling with grief, loss and a sense of failure as a parent.

    BSF has been a stronghold in my life. The study prayer and support of my classmates is priceless. God is good, his love is real.

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  41. Sandy’s story comforted me tremendously because I’m driven by guilt for more than 25 years that I didn’t leave my job to look after my son when he was young. At that time, I’ve treated earning a living as very important. But now, I deeply regret it but I can’t save my son from a lie that he bought from Satan that he can’t help who he is. He was abused when he was a teenager by predator men as he was very good looking. I was totally not aware of it at that time. May the Lord forgive me for not doing my job as a Christian mother. I’m praying for him everyday that my prodigal son will return back to God and abandon his current lifestyle. please pray for my son, C.

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    • Ivy, praying alongside you. The Lord sees your heart and hears your cries. You and C are deeply and dearly loved. You are not alone! We are praying with you!

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    • The Lord is hearing your prayer,release the guilt to Jesus, He took it on the cross.It’s paid for.Your son is in His hand. He will bring him back to you.

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  42. An amazing story- thanks for sharing it. I wish I had known Sandy 10 yrs ago when my Mom died. I was so angry, resentful, sad (cried everyday) I missed her so much (how could God take her without giving me warning – was my question) We were so close. It took me 4 yrs to be able to talk about her and now after 12 years I faced the anniversary of her death with joy -remembering how blessed I was to have had her as my Mom.

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  43. thank you for sharing! These struggles are real and painful in life yet our God is greater than them. I am sorry for what you have gone through and you are a tough mama having the Lord by our side is the only way and best way to get through life. hallelujah what he’s done for us giving us eternal life with him!

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  44. When I read this story, my first thought was well..”i don’t even have a child and never was I ever able to have one..” Yes, that’s ugly thoughts…. But God…. God sent me a son in whom God said… ” in still in him, Me..” I thank God for being compassionate to me and understanding and I thank you for sharing your story. Staying in BSF has helped me along my journey in all of my weaknesses and strengths. Staying positive along the way and remembering all of our small blessings that He still provides is refreshing!

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  45. This is an amazing story and I’m thankful to My Debbie for sharing it with me. Myself I have been through Loss of Life that I still blame myself for. This story and words are encouraging to me. Feeling that I’m not giving God my all just looking at the 50 percent. My that change today as I remind myself of this story from now on. Amen 🙏

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  46. This testimony has really encauraged me as I am nursing my sick father. To know that God is good and pure is the truth that has strengthened me.

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  47. Thank you so much for sharing your story. Indeed, our amazing God understands our heart. He answers our questions — even tough questions or questions buried through time, lovingly and opportunely.

    P.S.
    Can I pass on this story to a friend who is not attending BSF yet? She is going though a difficult time.

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    • Yes of course! We would love for you to share the link to any of our posts. BSF blog content is for everyone. Thank you!

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  48. Thank you, Sandy, for letting us see God’s work in your life and for glorifying Him with your testimony!

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  49. Hello Bethany, I enjoyed reading your blog. Your story is so comforting & thoughtful & reassuring. I was touched by your story. Losing a child is so very painful. Your story reminded my of my husband’s co-worker (teacher) who lost her 5 year old son in a car accident 26 years ago, struggled with the grief, & finally wrote a small book to give hope for grieving parents. I found the book helpful for any of us grieving the loss of a loved one as she mentioned like you God is good, always with us. My heart aches for both of you losing a child, and admire your faith in trusting God & knowing He is always with us. I so enjoy our BSF & praying you & the staff have a good year!

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  50. Thank you for sharing this encouraging story. God is definitely good, kind and present in our times of trouble and suffering. We can depend upon Jesus to supply peace amidst the storms of our life.

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  51. Thank you so much for this.
    Praise God, for he knows exactly how to comfort parents grieving a lost child, whether they are still alive on earth or with Him. I have some lost children of my own, and, though I know I am forgiven for any part I have had in their struggles, I have to lay my guilt down at the Lord’s feet now and then. I will not allow satan to rob me of today over things I can’t change about yesterday. Today, my children have free will to choose their own path, I can pray for them every day, and God is not finished with any of us yet. He is faithful to finish the good work he began. Amen.
    I am lifting a prayer for all the parents who struggle with loss and guilt.

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  52. Sharing is caring, a phrase we often hear. When reading this I thought of how blessed we are in so many other ways! Thank you.

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  53. My name is Sandy as well and I too lost my daughter in 2005. I was in BSF at the time. I turned my back on God out of anger and hurt. I did come back thanks to prayers and support from my BSF sisters

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  54. Been struggling with guilt wondering why? Whether God actually cares, thanks for sharing

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  55. A thousand testimonies I have heard of the heart breaking encounters with the unexpected, instantaneous wreckages which send a life reeling into what feels like an endless journey of sorrow and pain. Many even speak of the long walk of trust and daily workout of building faith in God’s inscrutable sovereignty. Few have I ever heard of discovery that God has stalked the broken life of her daughter with a persistent love and drawn her to His Son forever. Few have I ever heard of the moment of personal meeting with His sovereign providence through the anonymous minister of mercy on the scene 4 decades after the crushing blow of losing a child in a collision with eternity–and to find that she is in the same BSF group 46 years later. This totally cuts me open before the Lord in worship and adoration for who He is in all His perfect, providential sovereignty over every moment in my life. God bless you for helping me see Him more clearly and trust Him more willingly in my own tears.

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    • Wow , do we serve an awsome God or what? Amazing!😲

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  56. I just thank you for sharing your heart and life! Such courage, and strength only God could give.
    I’m so amazed that the nurse who tried her to save your son, heard you tell the story, only God can do that!

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  57. Thanks for sharing the reality that only Jesus Christ can give in the most difficult of life’s circumstances!

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  58. How encouraging! We serve an awesome God! In my darkest hours He’s been there speaking words of comfort.

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  59. What an incredible account of God’s gracious mercy across decades. I was especially touched by her realization that she had been focusing on the wrong 50%! It really reveals how the perspective WE see is the backside of what God is seeing and doing.

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  60. Sandy – Thank you for sharing! I also lost a child who battled addiction. This is such a reminder of what I need to focus on! My other two children and my grandchildren. And to boldly go to His Throne on their behalf.

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  61. Wonderful story! Many things happened to us that’s devastating yet God also works for good through that experience.

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  62. Joseph was being prepared when he endured many trials. As a Christian who loves the Lord and am an active BSF Shepherd, I’ve been prepared by many trials as well. God has an individualized plan for each of us who say yes to His Lordship.

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  63. ❤️thank you for sharing your life. It helps to hear stories like this.

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  64. Beautiful story! Thank you for sharing. ❤️God is so good!

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  65. I lost my 31 year old son to a overdose from huffing Air Duster. God has shown HIMSELF to me in amazing ways this past year. Though I have what I call “tsunami waves” HE HAS been with me through each wave and every other second of my life. I still grieve, but I grieve with HOPE 💕

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  66. I’ve experienced similar circumstances as Sandy Stubbs. I must forgive myself and turn all circumstances over to the Lord and ask for His forgiveness.

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  67. Oh my….I absolutely want to be included!

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  68. I can relate to this. My grief is regarding a grandson that die in a motorcycle accident. His mother and 2 brothers came to live with us when he was 10 months old. His mother was pregnant with his younger brother. He lived with us until he moved out when he was 22 years old. He was always special. God had told me that He had special plans for him. When He died, I couldn’t understand why God told me what He did. I thank Sandy for her sharing. I know that he is worshipping the Lord, but her sharing that I need to focus on the other grandchildren. Thank you.

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    • Thank you for sharing Sandy’s story. Our God is faithful, He will never leave or forsake His children.

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  69. The story offers great encouragement. It validates for me that God is listening even when we think we are all alone. We must continue to hold on to our faith and keep trusting in God

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  70. Thank you for sharing Sandy’s story of our Good Good God! His comfort and peace are there when we ask for it!

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  71. This story was encouraging to me, as I recently experienced deep grief from the sudden loss of my brother. That said, where does the Bible say that we will see our loved ones again? I’m not sure that’s something we should indicate will happen to people who have lost loved ones because I think the only thing it promises is that we will see Jesus and that will be enough.

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    • Amen! Thank you dear sister for speaking such truth. 🙂

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  72. Wow! What a wonderful testimony. I can’t even get through part of mine without tears and unable to finish. As we entered Lent I kept asking what should I sacrifice. But I haven’t sacrificed anything that I would normally give up. But instead I am being still before God to see what he has for me to hear.
    My daughter suffered and still suffers with depression. She made it through one suicide attempt and it is through the Grace of God that I was able to help save her. Now she walks in the midst of sin, a Same Sex Relationship/Marriage.
    I pray daily for both Girls that they will see God and walk with him. My guilt has been unbearable at times but I know God has them both in his arms. I release them to him.

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  73. Oh, Sandy’s testimony is so encouraging. I hope it is permissible for me to make reference to it as I use my own double adversity testimony to restore hope to those who don’t see it. You see, my husband and I had two beautiful daughters but lost our eldest 3 months shy of her 23rd birthday after a short illness which manifested as a headache in March 2010. She quickly got into a comma for 2 months and didn’t make it! To say the three of us were devasted in an understatement. But I clung to Jesus who I already had as my Lord and Saviour. My husband who had lived with a chronic kidney failure disease (was on hemodialysis for 18 years), died 5 years later of a stroke. Nearly 11 years since the first tragedy, I have seen the hand of God upon my surviving daughter’s and my life. From her, I have a nearly 6 months old grandson. In His goodness, God has enabled me to live to see my child’s child. To Him be all the glory forever. Amen

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  74. Such a great testimony of our God who is always present and who comforts and cares for us.

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  75. Sandy, thank you so very much for sharing your story of grief and triumph! It has given me hope.

    I was invited to BSF 2 years ago and only joined a month ago after being invited again by another friend. I know the timing is right and that I was lead here by God.

    On July 14, 2020 (after being told by medical professionals about 10 yrs prior that I needed to have knee replacement surgery) I finally had a total knee replacement on my right knee after tearing my meniscus on 12/25/19. Due to complications from scar tissue and infections, 6 surgeries later I am still not able to drive or walk comfortably without stiffness. As a real estate agent, this has been devastating! I was placed on full disability in November 2021 and on 3/4/22 I was told by my physical therapist that my insurance company will no longer approve my therapy sessions. Consuming pain medications isn’t something I want to do, but with no plan for recovery, I feel I have no choice.

    Not being able to drive has not only caused an abrupt end to my real estate career, it has also taken my independence to getting to places outside of my home. I’ve cried and asked God what His plans are for my life, but I’m not able to hear or discern His response.

    Through this time, I’ve been growing closer to God and through BSF I’m spending more time in the Word. I know God has a plan however, at this time I don’t know what it is.

    I am in total agreement with Sandy when she says “God is good. He is pure good”.

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  76. This story truly encouraged me and so happy to hear this sad yet beautiful story that lifts my spirit, God is good!

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  77. I am comforted by this blog by Bethany about Sandy Stubbs. Yes, sometimes we focus on the wrong object of our prayers and hope. How gracious is our God to point us to where we should go in our grief and hopelessness. I am also encouraged to continue in praying for my family so that my family will know the freedom offered by Jesus Christ to everyone. Thank you for sharing Bethany Lockett.

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  78. Thanks for sharing!’

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  79. This was a very sad but uplifting story as Sandy with faith and hope knows that two of her children are in heaven with our Lord. Sandy, under horrible grief, chose to follow God.
    However, not all people react to the death of a child in the same way. Some question God and even turn against Him. As I walk with the Lord, and with my own tragic story to deal with, I watched a neighbor lose her 22-year-old son to an accidental intake of fentanyl. I desperately wanted to help my neighbor as she had come over to give me a magnet that says “Jesus is the best gift of all”. I said thank you and hugged the magnet. She then said I am glad you like it because I do not believe in Jesus anymore. Grief and agony can make some people turn away from the Lord.

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    • Deborah – after reading your story about your neighbor, I began to immediately pray for her. I then re-read your comments, and it struck me (with God opening my eyes), that your neighbor, in her devastation, only thinks she doesn’t believe. I am sure the unbelief feels very real to her (I might have felt the same). But the reason I think this is because she gave you the magnet. The magnet was something that could have been easily thrown away; but she didn’t. When you have opportunity, let her talk. And perhaps one day (only God knows when), you will be able to bless her by giving the magnet back.

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    • I’ve known Sandy all my life. I remember the day my mom explained to me that Little David was gone. I didn’t fully understand it.
      I love Sandy dearly, and I know she will not mind me saying she struggled for years to find this peace. Be patient with your friend. It may take years or decades to restore her heart. It has taken 46 years of good and bad days to reach this point. God never gave up on her. He will not give up on your friend.

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  80. Sandy’s story is very powerful and inspirational. It gives all of us hope and faith in our circumstances. May take away for Sandy’s story is: Regardless of what it looks like or how we may feel, trust God!

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  81. Praise His holy name!!!

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  82. Thank you Sandy for your story of grief coupled with an abiding faith in God. It reminded me of the story that inspired the song “It Is Well With My Soul”. God is truly The Great Comforter.

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  83. Thank you Sandy for your story and being willing to share. God is our Refuge and strength! PS 46:1
    Praying God’s continued blessings on you precious sister!!

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  84. Thank you, Sandy, for sharing a part of your journey with us. I’m certain that everyone who reads it will be moved by God as only He can move us to our healing. Your story is a vehicle that God is using to heal many. God bless you!

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  85. WOW! This blog is so perfect for showing God’s unfailing comfort and love. What a terrific testimony of God’s pure goodness. Thanks for sharing!

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  86. Praise the Lord. Thank you Sandy for this powerful sharing. It is an encouragement. We are reminded that God is Good. He cares and comforts us.

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  87. At times we feel our strength begins to be weak, then God comes along side us, and we becomes strong for he is by our side, as Sandy found out.
    God is good and he never leaves us alone.

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  88. Thank you for sharing this amazing testimony of God’s goodness. I lost my husband last year and what has kept me motivated is God through my BSF Ministry. I have been loved and comforted by leaders and always reminded of God’s love. Thank you for allowing God to use you to encourage me

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  89. Thank you for sharing this story. It is helpful. There are situations that my children and grandchildren are facing that are totally overwhelming and beyond my control. I will continue to let go and let God do His work. This so hard for me as I want to fix everyone.Loss is extremely difficult for me. Your words are encouraging.

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  90. Sandy, amazing testimony! I can relate in your sorrows but also in your joys! God does have a way doesn’t He? The peace that only the Holy Spirit can give us can strengthen us in those dark times and is so unexplainable. I will be sharing my testimony at a women’s retreat in April. Thank you for sharing! God bless! You are an inspiration.

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  91. Thank you for being open and sharing your story. I have always struggled with seeing God as ultimately good. I appreciate your perspective.

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    • This submission strengthened me a lot. It reminded me that God is always with me and He puts people to help me in my pathway as I live my life. ENCOURADED me to realise that my God is faithful always. When He says I am with you always, I should believe so and encourage other people to do the same. I am also reminded to be strong in the face of difficulties as this lady and her family were. God is always with me no matter what happens God is my salvation++

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  92. Sandy’s story is so powerful for me. I have an adult son who has abused meth for 20 years. Her story gave me the hope I need and a huge desire to completely turn this grief over to my Lord. I desperately needed to hear this story and I totally know that God led me to read it through!

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  93. I’m sitting here in a shopping mall waiting for my wife. As I sit here the concerns of my own life are heavy. We need to find a home within the next 25 days. Reading this as I sit here waiting was a gift to me as well. How God works in our lives is amazing. Of course he will provide for us as needed. Praise God for his love, grace, and faithfulness.

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  94. Thank you to Sandy Stubbs for sharing her story. I cried (for the hundreth time this week) when I read it. I lost my beautiful 30 year old daughter to addiction/fentanyl in November and am deep in the grief. I praise God that waited for her to turn back to him before he took her. Sandy reminded me that God is good. He is full of grace and mercy and his character never changes. I don’t yet know why and I don’t know how, but I pray that God will be glorified through all this pain. Although I don’t feel much peace or comfort yet, I believe that one day I will look back and see how he is carrying me – and Sandy and others like us who have lost our precious children.

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  95. Thk uou for this inspirational message. Indeed God is good all e time. I believe God’s plan is in Sandy’s predicaments to glorify Him. It would have been meaningless for Sandy life if she has not known God.
    To Sandy, e Lord be with her n family in blessings of love peace n joy.

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  96. Thank you for sharing your story Sandy. This is like a challenge to me to put my own story on paper. It may never be seen by anyone other than my family, but testimonies that are God-given bring comfort to others.
    God bless you! And yes, God is nothing but good!

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  97. Thanks for sharing your story Sandy. It is a fact that God is truly watching over us and nothing is hidden from him. Thank you Lord for you loving kindness. Your grace is amazing. Your story reminds me of his promises. “ I will never leave you, I will never forsake you, I will be with you wherever you go”. He is our great Comforter.

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  98. Beautiful testimony and show of Sandy’s Love and Faith with Jesus

    😇❤️🙏🙏

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  99. What an inspiring story! GOD is good and is always there for us.

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  100. Thank you for Sandy’s story, wow my heart was filled with joy when God reached out to Sandy personally.
    God confirms His Promises & Covenant with His people. The Triune God is faithful, He is so worthy of our
    Praise!!

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  101. thank you for sharing this testimony of our God’s enduring grace and love, even in the midst of human pain and suffering.

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  102. Thank you Bethany Lockett. Sandy’s story has really taought me about God’s goodness. Even after so much pain, grief and guilt our God provided hope and Peace. This is the real assurance of our God that He will never leave us. He will be with us to the close of age. We will therefore cling to the faith and hope knowing that Jesus Christ Son of God rose from the dead.

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    • A beautiful story! Thank you Sandy for sharing. You endured a lot! But you stayed strong and encouraged! You kept your faith in the midst of the hardest trials and you were victorious because of your faith and your trust in God! I think of so many whose hearts become so consumed with hurt and anger that they get mad with God and refuse to pray, refuse to seek comfort from Him and refuse to understand that He always have a plan. A plan to restore, build up and bring peace.
      Your story reminds us of how loving our God is and that He is always there for us. He will help us to see the light even in our darkest hours. May His peace always be with you!

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  103. Thank you, Sandy, for sharing. I too experienced God’s instant “10-gallon bucket of peace”, when I had no other to cry out to but Him. God does respond immediately in those moments where only He can replace our feelings of despair into a surreal moment of peace. “And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Phil 4:7

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  104. Thank you Sandy for sharing your story of God’s goodness, faithfulness and comfort. Truly encouraging.

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  105. This story is Holy Spirit inspired! I cried all the way thru this story! Thank you for sharing!

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  106. Your story opened up my own wounds and I was able to cry for the first time in about 25 or 30 years

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  107. I need Gods comfort and intervention for my wife of 34 years and 7 Children is threatening me with Divorce my heart is heavy I’m overwhelmed we have a covenant with God and I will not break it!

    Please prayer Warriors pray my wife hears Jesus and withdraws her Divorce filing.💔

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    • This is comforting to me bc my husband is currently at Hospice House, near death! He knows Jesus and I know I will see him again!

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  108. This was very encouraging as my son had been relocated to heaven almost two years ago. It’s something you never get over. How God spoke to Sandy and gave her peace gives me comfort and peace, too. I tend to struggle with fear of another tragedy, but then try to focus on God and His eternal hope and glory knowing that He will get me through each day as He did with Sandy. Thank you, Sandy, for sharing your heart. It is no coincidence that God allowed me to read this testimony.

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    • I lost my son 7 years ago in a work accident. That feeling you have, waiting for the next shoe to drop, is very common. Death, sudden death, becomes very real to you & the terrible realization that trusting God doesn’t mean bad things won’t happen. Learning what we can trust God for becomes the journey. I can finally say, after 7 years, that My anticipation of what will be for eternity has begun to overshadow the darkness of my grief. That we can trust God for. God bless you & be with you in your grief

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  109. Thank you!

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  110. This was a uplifting story, one that gives us hope and the knowledge that God is always with us. I too have been praying for many years for a son with substance abuse, I believe God is answering my prayers, my son is in a Christian sober living house and doing the best he has in years.

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  111. This truly blessed me. Thank you for sharing. What a beautiful and powerful testimony. May God continue to use you and be glorified in, and through your life.

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  112. Thank you for sharing this incredible story of hope and inspiration. In a world filled of pain, it reminds us God is good and is always looking after us.

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  113. Great job Bethany on sharing Sandy’s story of God’s pure goodness! He is true goodness for all of His children! Thank you Lord God for who you are and always will be.

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  114. Thank you for sharing Sandy’s story of how He provided comfort, as only God could. The remarkable timing that this mother would meet the nurse who tended to her son. Truly amazing!

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  115. This gives me hope to pray for my living children and grandchildren

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  116. Thank you. This touched me w hope n comfort
    I have felt like a failure too. Our son committed suicide at 31 but He knew Jesus as Savior . …he was 5th sailor of his group that did this! God have mercy on the depressed and hopeless! And us all!!! Help us LORD!

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  117. “God is good. He is pure good.”
    Thank you Sandy.

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  118. Wow! My tears won’t stop. Oh how beautiful is the Sovereignty of God! The amazing divine appointments he gave Sandy. From speaking to her, her and her husband drawn to salvation, for the nurse to be right there, the police escort, the note found by her daughter reassuring them that she is HIS… all of this process of grief.. sanctification and that Sandy is at the point to share and God has that nurse sitting in the audience to hear!! We serve a loving God. To Him be the Glory! Thank you for sharing!

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  119. Sandy, Your courage in sharing your story gives glory to our remarkable, loving Savior. I, too, have been through great loss and know God’s amazing peace in His presence. May you continue in His love until we all are joined to Jesus and our loved ones.

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  120. I so needed to hear from God and your sharing was wonderful. You reminding me of His presents when we don’t see it and his care to bring you to meet the willing person to be used by him at the accident
    Thank you for your story.

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  121. Thanks for this truly beautiful story of how god works in our lives. All we need to do is just stop and look at what god does daily in our lives and see that he never leaves us for even a moment. He truly loves us as only he can love ❤️!!

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  122. I so loved this sharing❤️ Walking through life and knowing God is always, always there with us and working…a blessed reminder to keep our eyes on Jesus❤️

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  123. Wow!!! We truly serve a living God. To meet with the nurse after all those years is truly amazing. I am deeply encouraged.

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  124. Thanks for sharing we serve an awesome God.

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  125. I can identify with Sandy’s grief. Our son died in a accident on the way to school with his best friends 29 years ago, our 50%. Our church family surrounded us and got us through the immediate loss and pain. It’s the following years that have been challenging at times. God has come to us in many forms of people at the right time to pick us up again. This is the first year being in BSF and the group of men that I attend with have become another answer from GOD!
    Sandy Thanks for sharing and God Bless.

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  126. Thanks for sharing. I’m going through a tough period and am greatly encouraged by your testimony. I pray that the HOLY SPIRIT comfort and guide me through my challenge knowing JESUS is with me as HE was with HIS disciples during a storm on a boat.

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  127. This is such a beautiful story of Gods goodness. I am Teary-eyed over the heartache and difficulty of it all for you, and yet Gods glory and goodness and compassionate care shines so brightly in Bis comfort for you. Thank you for sharing. I thank God that He is the God of all comfort and praise Him for your testimony of that and His goodness to you, Sandy.

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  128. What a wonderful testament. So assuring to know that our loving God is there to take care each of us his children.

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  129. Indeed God is good, He is pure good.

    Wow! What a Mighty God we serve.

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  130. Wow! I don’t always read these posts, but this message is exactly what I needed to hear today. Thank you.

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  131. My eldest son was diagnosed with laryngeal papilloma at 4 months old. He had a tracheotomy and could not utter any sound. I prayed whenever I had the chance for seven years and God heard me. The tube inserted into his throat was removed at the age of seven. He is now 50 years old and is a successful Engineer. I thought thet he would not be able to talk at all.

    God is good all the time!!!

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  132. We are committed Christians and BSFers and have suffered in a similar way to Sandy Stubbs. I am wondering if she is prepared to communicate with me by email?

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  133. Thank you for sharing. ONLY GOD! ONLY GOD can give such kind of comfort and peace.

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  134. I lost my son 14 years ago. He was 26 and died suddenly of an undetected heart defect. He and I had been estranged for 10 years until about 2 years before his death. I have been deeply grateful for God reconciling our relationship before he passed. I had the comfort of my faith, my family, and Friends who brought me through the darkest time in my life. Now many years later I look back and I see the many blessings that I received at a time that it was very difficult to think of anything positive.

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  135. Thank you Sandy for your testimony on the faithfulness and goodness Of our God for i do experience how Holy Spirit prompted me to send my husband to hospital in the Nick Of time before he had a heart attack. God provide best medical treatment and today my husband has also accepted Jesus as his savior

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  136. I cried not because of grief but God’s goodness in all situations. Am praying that I always trust him since I also feel to have not been the best for my children. My first born was recently sacked from his job at a local bank for indulging in heavy drinking.

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  137. Powerful Read
    Amazing Grace that Sandy’s Faith was on solid ground. The depths of hell could not prevail. I loved hearing how the Lord spoke to her about her two children Worshipping with Jesus and that she concentrate on the two remaining. Continual Blessings of God/Jesus Christ

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  138. Many times I wait. And wait. And wait for God’s answer. And sometimes I don’t get an answer. Except I do get an answer, I just don’t always see/hear it. I love this story, and it helps me to remember to wait upon the Lord. Always wait upon the Lord. Imagine the peace Sandy had so many years after losing her son. I love that God is so merciful and full of grace.

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  139. Thank you for sharing this testimony of God‘s faithfulness, it is an encouragement to walking with God and trusting Him. I am thankful for Bible Study Fellowship and being in God’s word, encouraging each other to know God more deeply.

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  140. Sandy’ s story touched me deeply. So often we forget how good he is. Thank you for sharing this and reminding us that even in our darkest moments he is at work.

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  141. God has ways of comforting and reassuring us of His love and care. In the most unexpected places or through people we would never expect! Thank you for sharing God’s blessing to you.

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  142. What an amazing Testimony Sandy ! To God Be The Glory for using you to be a platform for Him to do what only HE can do !

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  143. The story of Sandy is profound and encouraging. Indeed her testimony that God cares and He is always with us even when in grief.

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  144. I am grateful for Sandy. My son died October 18, 2020 at age 33. He was my only biological son. I miss him do very much. God’s grace has been sufficient. Thank you so much Sandy for your testimony. We overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony. Thanks again.

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  145. Unbelievable, wonderful testimony, but the test! Good is pure good even in our weakest, most helpless situations. Amen. i liked it when she said God had shown her she was focusing on the wrong percentage and refocused her…wow

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  146. Thank you for sharing such a beautiful testimony of God’s goodness.
    I am so encouraged by Sandy’s faith and the way God comforted her through His presence and His people. God has been teaching me that He is always good, He is always present to help, He is always willing to carry me but I am able to understand and appreciate all this when I go through a challenge, when I come to the end of myself and when I give away my idols. God has allowed every trial in my life to draw me closer to Him. I praise God.

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  147. In times of doubt, remember His promises. Remember who He has always been. Even in doubt and uncertainty, if you keep going to Him, He will continually show Himself to be trustworthy.
    I trust in You!

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    • Praise God for this wonderful testimony. Lord jesus help us to be calm and stand firm on faith when we go through hurdles. Help us to trust that you are our prayer answering god at your time. Anen

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  148. Thanks for sharing this amazing story. One day we will learn what we never knew for decades or in our life time

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  149. Amen.Our God is good all the time. Thank you for sharing .

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    • “God is pure good”, such a beautiful statement.

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  150. This story is a testament showing the miracleous ways in which our great creator works. Always on time just when we need him most. He is grace and mercy has brought you through. So let us continue to trust, believe and be faithful because he keeps his promise never to leave or forsake

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  151. What a beautiful testimony. I hope one day I will testify his mercies up on my life,children and family. Seems am focusing on the wrong percentage. Amen to Sandy’s faith

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  152. Thank you for sharing. Praying with you Sandy, Nikki, Chandra, Rebecca, Laura, Pete, Florence, for your loss.

    Praying also for Deborah, may God draw the lost to Himself.

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  153. Thank you Sandy for sharing for faithful and good God is in your life . Indeed He is always faithful in every situation in our lives , good and true !!! Amen ♥️

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  154. Thank you for sharing this powerful testimony of God’s love. I have no words that can adequately say how touched I am by your absolute and profound faith. God bless you always!

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  155. When my brother called me long distance to tell me that my beloved sister had been killed in a plane crash, I felt God’s robe fall upon me and cover me. He gave me peace because I did not know how I could go on without her. She was my sister and best friend. She was 33 with two children who were not on the plane. I will praise Him all the days of my life for His love.

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  156. What a great reminder of God’s care for us. We tend to look at the dark side, even when Jesus’ light is shining so bright on the other side. Thank you God for Your comfort through the pain ..

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  157. What a timely message, Gid is our comforter. I lost My brother in December 2021, he died in his sleep under my roof. I have been leaving with guilt thinking there is something i could have done. My Christmas was spent in mourning., my children had lost a buddy they played with and in the midist of that i coun’t find peace with his death. I asked God for peace and he gave me peace. But now i am comforted and God is still good in all circumstances

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  158. Thank you for the message. I’ve had a lot of grief in the past 4 years and that message ministered to my soul.

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  159. Thank you for sharing your life with us. Thank you for the encouragement knowing no matter how bad things get GOD is faithful.

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  160. Powerful testimony to our Powerful, Caring God.

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  161. My sorrow and guilt is from the suicide of my grown son in November 2019. The questions I ponder about what I could have said or done overwhelm me often. The battle rages in my mind; yet I strive to cling to the faithfulness of God. The loss of a child whether young or grown is so painful.

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  162. To Bethany Lockett,

    Thank you for being the Editorial Assistant for BSF. I started BSF in 1974 ( we studied Matthew that year) in San Antonio Texas, and I was working for a student christian organization. I learned so much that year, then in 1975 I was sent east to NC State, then to Clemson in South Carolina, God has had me in Virginia for 40 years. My oldest son graduated from Wheaton, and loved it. In 2010 I was able to study Isaiah with BSF in Centreville, Virginia. It has been wonderful to study Matthew again. Thank you for helping women know God through studying His Word.

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  163. My husband & I have led GriefShare sessions for many years & we hear some amazing stories. This is truly a story of God’s love given just to you on your grief journey from mourning to Joy. Thank you for sharing.

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    • God IS good! I will pray for you as you council the broken hearted. Thank you for your kind words and encouragement.

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  164. Amen to him be the glory!

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    • Amen!

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  165. As a mother who both her sons died within 3 years of each other… My only children… I too felt like a failure… God in his mercy both times flooded me with His peace and assurance of my sons salvation and presence with them and with me. My sons were both saved as young boys. They both died as young men, 22 & 21 years old.
    Everyday I live, I praise God for saving them and for giving me the greatest gift ever! A life of Eternity spentbwith him and my son’s! My greatest hope is to live forever knowing we will Never be separated through death, pain and sorrow again. Now I see only Joy where once I saw and felt only pain…
    Thank you So much for sharing your beautiful story of Hope, peace, love and most of all Assurance!! I’ll see you in heaven my dear sister on day!

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    • Yes, Sister.
      Amen!

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  166. I’m sad that Sandy and her husband had to suffer so much loss. But I was so encouraged by their faith. The kind of faith that is tried, tested and true and knows that God is good. Thanks for sharing such a powerful testimony.

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  167. ,,,,oh what peace we often forfeit, oh what needless pain we share. What a blessing to find His peace in the midst of our pain.

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  168. What a beautiful testimony! I love the saying…”my trials will become my testimonies”… and I truly believe that it helps me navigate my path thru the hard times and keep me grounded in faith.

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  169. I lost my 21 yr old granddaughter last January. It was unexpected sudden death. I never asked God why . Because I know God is good and it happened for a purpose. I’ve become a comforter to many. Though, I still carry pain I’m able to move forward. The greatest comfot I get from God through my leadership in Bsf. Looking forward to next 4 weeks study.

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  170. Indeed God is not only really good but pure good!

    In the midst of our struggles, pains n cries. God’s peace n faithfulness endures forever

    Praise God from whom all blessings flow!

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  171. It is no coincidence I read this today. Thank to Sandy who shared. Today is my son’s Birthday. He died of Fentanyl poisoning August 4, 2021 after several years battling addiction. I too have been comforted by God including reading this today. His death as with so many was tragic, but I know he had a relationship with Jesus and believe I will see him again. Thanks be to God, the just Judge.

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  172. Wow… thank you for sharing your story. I can’t even imagine the grief and guilt.

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  173. Letting the Lord God comfort us is the only way to keep going. That truly was a story of sorrow yet hope. God’s timing is never wrong. We hope in HIM alone.

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    • God does carry our needs and loves us so much. Thank you for sharing.

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  174. This story gave me a little peace . My granddaughter Lexi was born with a disabilities . She died 10 days before Thanksgiving. She was a wonderful, fun beautiful girl. My heart is still full of grief. My heart is trying to heal.Thank you for this story. I have been a BSFer for over 5 years.

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  175. What a testimony to Gods faithfulness in the midst of pain and hardship…
    He shows up EVERY time; maybe not in the way we would want Him to but He is pure and perfect in all He does!

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  176. Unfortunately Sandy I know. I’ve been there. 19 years ago my son Nick died in a tragic car accident. I lived the Footprints poem and God has sustained my family and I with His Love, Mercy and Grace and continues to do so today.
    God Bless

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  177. God is good and gives us what we need exactly when we need it.

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  178. My heart is overflowing with emotions. Even though I have not experienced the physical loss of a child, I do feel that I failed my son. I didn’t give my first born, my first fruit back to God. Yes, he was raised knowing about God the Father, Jesus the son, and Holy Spirit. But I know I missed the mark. My desire now is for him to worship God and serve Him in spirit and truth. I want his life to glorify God. I want his life to be light.

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  179. As a mother who has lost two children , 29 yrs on child and 3 yrs for the other one. Yet this article stilled ministered to me because I still have moments. God stated sin word that he never leaves. So blessed reading this.

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  180. Just what I needed to hear during this season of my life. Recently lost a member of our family,have experienced several losses in the past and have been struggling to understand why God would allow this. I am comforted that God is not yet through with us and that He sees the right perspective,I may be seeing the wrong perspective. In the end He will prove to be good because He is good all the time!!

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  181. Story made me cry sad tears and joyful tears. God even sent that angel nurse to give Sandy comfort. What a blessing and that she saw God’s hand even in deep despair. We serve a mighty God!

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  182. Thank you for sharing Sandy’s story that I’m sure many of us can relate to. Also, how exciting to learn that Bethany is now an editorial assistant at BSF headquarters! Her mom is my Teaching Leader and her grandmother and I are in the same zoom class.

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  183. Thank you for sharing this, I know it was hard, God is good and I needed to hear this, I am a RN who has come to love her patient, she was 2 when I started caring for her, got her new liver in August but has had many issues, back in hospital now in rejection, she knows all about God and his love for her, your story has given me hope.

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    • I will pray for God to heal this precious one!

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  184. Thanks for this encouraging word from Sandy.
    It is already helping me in my journey as I pray for my children, grandchildren and great grandchild.

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  185. Such an inspiring story of how God is with us through our worst times, giving us strength & peace. Sandy, thank you for very bravely sharing some of your worst heartaches and how God gave you peace. Love to you & praise to God for His unlimited love!

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  186. Bethany,
    Your story really touched my heart today. What a beautiful reminder that no matter what encircles us, God is faithful. I have shared this with several other Moms who like me are praying for our children and their salvation and path. May it encourage their hearts as it as mine today. Thank you for taking the time to share your beautiful story.

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    • Thank you for posting today’s blog. i’m cried for Sandy while reading it. i’ve not had the same experience as her before; however, i know the most deepest core heart would be never opened to anyone…only GOD knows how to handle such isolation and will provide us with a perfect answer under HIS deep insight. Sandy’s case is also our HOPE. Thank GOD, Sandy, Betany‼️ GOD bless‼️

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